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I don't really like doing that announcement thing, but since I'm her roommate... Snow White's gone home! Which is good, that means she's finally back with James, who's her total love at first sight wonderful husband and she has a daughter that maybe she'll get to see now so I'm happy for her. Right, and Al left too, but that was last month. Uh... a few others, but I don't really know the full list.

It makes me curious about something else, though. What do you guys do to show you remember and care about people who you'll probably never see again in this lifetime?

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Which is a total bummer. Other times, though, it's really helpful!

I've had more instances of it just being disappointing rather than helpful.

More, but not exclusively!

Just because it's not exclusively doesn't mean it's better.

And even then, it's generally been better since I've been here. People just believe me more, here. Even when I lie.

See? Bright sides! Though I'm pretty sure we're not supposed to be glad when people are nice about the lies or not.

Being nice about the lies makes me feel better sometimes.

Hey, how've things been for you and your important people lately, anyway?

That's a weird topic change but okay. I guess I've been okay. Feferi's not been around a lot, but I haven't snapped and punched anyone in the face lately except myself so I guess I'm okay. I'm a few steps closer (I think) to convincing my... dad he's not a brainwashed computer?

( She appreciates that he rolls with it. Talking too much about what makes you feel better when lying... )

Your dad's here? Wait, sorry, what's got him thinking he's a brainwashed computer? That's no good at all!

Well, he's more my "ancestor." That's our word for it. But "dad" is closer to the human phrase. Although my lusus was my dad too. Two dads, I guess? Uh. Yeah.

And he's like that because of just... stuff. Fucking messed up stuff.

You guys have really complex families. It's neat, though confusing! I swear I'll almost get the hang of it one day.

( She bites down on her lip, then nods her head, briefly looking upset. )

I'm sorry. You've been really able to help him, though? He's thinking more for himself little by little? I mean, being taught to act like a robot is pretty not cool when you're not, you know, actually a robot.

Not really. He only spoke like he should have once, and he's been here for like a perigee at least. Maybe two.

And yeah, really?? Being told to act like a robot isn't cool?? Do you think my highbloods care about that??

No your highbloods seem kind of like pretty big jerks! If we're talking like Eridan and stuff?

Hey, if his whole life was lived one way, it takes a lot of time and patience to help him relearn a different way of living. Stick to it! Try not to get too frustrated with him. He's worth the effort, right?

Eridan, by highblood cruelty standards, is the tip of the iceberg.

I guess.

There's no one really jerkish like that here, is there?

Not anymore.

That's good!

Of my species, at least. I can't say the same for everyone else here.

Oh I'm pretty sure we still have a few jerkosaurus rexes around for sure.

I feel like that's some reference I'm not getting, but okay.

Only if you've never heard of dinosaurs before! That'd be sad. Giant lizards with sharp teeth and big attitudes!

Sounds like Terezi's lusus, but that was definitely more of a dragon.

What was your lusus like, again?

A giant bicyclops with enough mental disabilities for me to be a more of a caretaker of him than him of me.

I've never heard of a bicyclops before! Do you miss him at all, for all that? Or did you not like having to take care of him when he was supposed to take care of you?

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