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[heartsink]

[the name associated with this post/account and all her subsequent comments herein (or elsewhere) is "Haruka Takahashi"]

I used to have dreams like this.

Well, not exactly like this, I mean. Nothing so specific. But you know how it goes, don't you? Girl dislikes her situation, the way her life is going, the way people treat her, wishes she were anywhere else but there. Then a strange thing occurs, and there's this whole other world that needs her, specifically her. This place sees her for who she is, sees her strengths and the change she wants, and it tells her that she's needed to save this other world. Protect it. She's the only one who can. Like a hero, a ruler, or something else. That part changes pretty easily, I think.

There's a lot of stories like that, too, of course. I don't think I'm the only one who's had a dream like that. We all have our little unhappinesses. And sometimes the new kingdom, she loves it so much she never wants to go home. Sometimes being there just makes her miss everything she left behind, and she does everything she can to go back.

Of course, when I say I used to have dreams like this, that would mean I woke up from them, too.

I suppose this is like that. In a way. It's been almost three weeks now, but I guess I'm still trying to get used to it, that's all.

What were your dreams? Did you have them? Or do you, still? Whatever they are, or were, I hope you keep in mind that you can't trust them. There's no Truth to dreams.

Comments

[gevurah]

Sounds nice. Parents move a lot?

[heartsink]

Something like that, yeah.

[gevurah]

Can I ask what they do?

[heartsink]

A few different things, over the years. But, it's not very important, is it?

[gevurah]

If you say so, I guess.

[ SMALL TALK. ]

[heartsink]

I'm sorry, I don't think it would be fair, talking so much about people who can't say anything about themselves.

[gevurah]

That's awfully thoughtful of you.

[heartsink]

Thank you. I suppose.

[gevurah]

Do you mind if I ask how old you are? [ she gets the sense she's talking to someone young... but not too young. ]

[heartsink]

17. Why?

[gevurah]

Mostly curiosity, but I figured you were young-ish.

[heartsink]

What gave me away, specifically?

[gevurah]

Just the bit about parents moving a lot. [ OF COURSE... some people stay with them throughout their lives. ]

[heartsink]

I'll keep that in mind.

I haven't lived with them in years, anyway.

[gevurah]

That can't be easy.

[heartsink]

It wasn't so bad, actually. I mean, grocery shopping was a pain, but that's always true.

[gevurah]

Do you have a car, at least?

[heartsink]

Yeah, I did. And I already miss it.

[gevurah]

Walking loses its fun pretty fast here.

[ fucking rain. ]

[heartsink]

Ugh, seriously.

[gevurah]

I don't know if there are any cars here or parts to build one.

[heartsink]

I don't know the first thing about it, but I wouldn't be surprised if someone could manage to build one from scrap.

[gevurah]

I only know how to fix engines and tires.

There's someone who was building something to do with the weather here. Not sure what happened to it.

[heartsink]

Is that person still around?

[gevurah]

Hang on.

[ she does a quick search on the network and sees the name still available. ]

Yes. Lee Chaolan.