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[the name associated with this post/account and all her subsequent comments herein (or elsewhere) is "Haruka Takahashi"]

I used to have dreams like this.

Well, not exactly like this, I mean. Nothing so specific. But you know how it goes, don't you? Girl dislikes her situation, the way her life is going, the way people treat her, wishes she were anywhere else but there. Then a strange thing occurs, and there's this whole other world that needs her, specifically her. This place sees her for who she is, sees her strengths and the change she wants, and it tells her that she's needed to save this other world. Protect it. She's the only one who can. Like a hero, a ruler, or something else. That part changes pretty easily, I think.

There's a lot of stories like that, too, of course. I don't think I'm the only one who's had a dream like that. We all have our little unhappinesses. And sometimes the new kingdom, she loves it so much she never wants to go home. Sometimes being there just makes her miss everything she left behind, and she does everything she can to go back.

Of course, when I say I used to have dreams like this, that would mean I woke up from them, too.

I suppose this is like that. In a way. It's been almost three weeks now, but I guess I'm still trying to get used to it, that's all.

What were your dreams? Did you have them? Or do you, still? Whatever they are, or were, I hope you keep in mind that you can't trust them. There's no Truth to dreams.

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Though as Ruka said do we even understand each other anyway so eh

[speakveryclearly]

Unusual Relative To Your Climate Before Yeah
This Is Something Other Transports Commonly Remark Upon And Make The Subject Of Complaint

:')

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If that's the case, that proves this place to be the anomaly. Well, this region of this place, at the very least. I can't speak for anything else of this world.

/)_____(\

[speakveryclearly]

Maybe
I Still Dont Know What The Significance Of This World To All The Others Represented Here Really Is

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If it were some imitation of your own world, wouldn't you be curious about the differences?

[speakveryclearly]

But Of Course
To An Extent I Am Even As Only A Visitor To Other Iterations Of Human Enclaves
What I Meant Was Something Along The Lines Of
Does This Example Of Your Planet Possess More Or Less Clout Than Others
Since Simply Possessing The Exact Same Amount Wouldnt Make Much Sense Would It

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It's the only one I know, so it's the only measure I can fully trust.

But do you mean to say, that you've visited more human worlds than one or even two? Presuming that's what you meant by "enclave."

[speakveryclearly]

Well
I Mean To Say Ive Been Through The Interdimensional Grubnapping Musical Number Once Before
However That Case Was Not Technically An Instance Of Earth But A Human Satellite Of Some Kind
Hence Saying Ive Been To Multiple Earths Would Be Inaccurate
As This Is The Only Instance In Which I Had The Opportunity To Literally Set Foot Upon A Version Of Your Planet

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That's right. Now that you mention it, I remember you saying something along those lines before.

What was that like? If you don't mind me asking, that is.

[speakveryclearly]

[The speed at which this somewhat message arrive is slightly dissonant with Kanaya's typing speed thus far, almost twice as slow.]

Awful
I Really Dont Understand Why Your Species Has This Ideal Of Being "Humane" When Interdimensional Grubnapping Is Such A Common Business Model
Its Rather Hypocritical

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Having an ideal doesn't mean someone will do a very good job of attaining it.

But you're not wrong. About the hypocrisy, I mean; most humans are like that.

(Yes, I'm including myself.)

[speakveryclearly]

At Least Youre Admitting It
That Puts You In A Class Above Most Humans Ive Ever Known
They Deny It Vehemently Which Is Just Terribly Humorous In A Sad Ironic Way

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There's no point to denying it, I think. But we all like presenting ourselves better than we are, so it's no surprise to hear that denial is so common.

[speakveryclearly]

I Guess We Do
On Earth There Are Just So Many Secrets To Be Kept
Especially With The Common Yet Hardly Known Institution Of Interdimensional Grubnapping
It Overcomplicates Things

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I'll confess, this is the first time it's happened to me, so I can't really weigh in on how common it is.

[ you filthy fucking liar ]

Even if you remove that, though, I don't think it makes humans any less complicated.

ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED

[speakveryclearly]

Everyone Says That The First Time It Happens To Them You Know
They Usually Dont Consider It A Confession Though
So Youre Getting A Sense Of How Common It Really Is Arent You

:') i'm So Proud

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I don't know. I think it would be impossible to fully comprehend the scale.

And don't mind what I say, as much as that. I'm not usually very literal.

[speakveryclearly]

Humans Rarely Are
Its One Of My Main Stumbling Blocks In Communicating With Your Kind

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My apologies. Force of habit, in my case.

[speakveryclearly]

You Dont Have To Apologize
Unless Youre Going To Try To Make Me Apologize For Being What Im Sure You Perceive As Excessively Literal

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I wouldn't make you do anything.

[speakveryclearly]

You Say Now

[heartsink]

Then let me rephrase. I would not, or will not, try to force you to do anything or take any course of action, or inaction. Now or in the future.

I may make requests, but I cannot compel.

[speakveryclearly]

[That... hits her. Most humans consider the use of force a bad thing. So they do it when they decide to manifest that they're bad people. Haruka's not a bad person. Though she is a little defensive. A defensive liar? No, Haruka's a good kind of human. She probably wouldn't intentionally lie.]

You May Not Be Literal To A Fault But Youre Certainly Capable Of Impressive Precision Haruka

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[ kanaya no "this is like a dream" + "you shouldn't trust dreams to tell you the truth" = "you shouldn't trust me to tell you the truth"

girls in eye patches will only break your heart ]

I've had practice.

[speakveryclearly]

[Well, at least she's been around the bend enough times to be pretty sure being human means she must be straight which is good, because there are a lot of much more implausible eventual outcomes for the good impression Takahasi has left than-- Nope. Not doing the human romance thing ever again until further notice, her subconscious spits that right back into the Furthest Ring where it belongs.

The thing is that Kanaya's entire subconscious thought reading this post is about nothing but Prospit. Where dreams could be trusted to tell the truth. (Would Haruka have dreamed on Prospit or Derse? That's a stupid question.) She hasn't brought it up out of its excessive fantasticism, even though Haruka would probably be reasonable about it. The point is that she thinks of Haruka as a purple-or-gold clad princess like herself, now, and just because that's not the same as their parallel existence doesn't mean the internal truth isn't honest. She doesn't pull at the seams much more than that because she wants more than anything not to wake up from Exsilium. Not to go back into the nightmare.

She trusts Haruka to pretty much the limit of reasonable for someone traumatized to trust a peer she's met once and texted once. That level could be a lot higher, but somewhat lower.]

Have You Had To Exposit Your Planets Various Idiosyncratic Cycles To Other Species Before

[Though that might be incompatible with the whole "my life is so incredibly normal I just read interesting books" premise, she decides not to actually add any convenient outs like "was that common in your books" or "I know your planet rarely has those". On a conscious level, this is because that would just muddle the question.]