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[hejhej]

[It's been awhile since Lisbeth's done a text post, but she doesn't want anyone to see her tear-stained face nor hear how hoarse her voice has become from screaming all into the night for nearly a week straight.]

Guilt is pretty fucking awful. It feels like it's eating your soul.

[A feeling she is so unfamiliar with - Lisbeth never feels guilt about anything.]

How the fuck do you get rid of it?

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[falla]

Do you want my version of the long answer or the short answer?

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[hejhej]

Short.

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[falla]

You can't. You don't. Is there forever and one day you learn how to accept it and maybe, just maybe it will make you a better person.

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[hejhej]

[That is exactly the opposite of what Lisbeth wanted to hear.]

Bullshit. I want to cut it out.

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[falla]

Don't we all.

Then again, it also matters what is the source of the guilt is.

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[hejhej]

Someone is gone.

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[falla]

Because of you?

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[hejhej]

Probably.

Not solely because of me, but I might have partly precipitated the event on top of all the other things happening.

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[falla]

I think I know what you mean.

Beating yourself over it isn't really going to change it. Knowing that it isn't going to change it won't make the guilt go away though. And that's usually what it means to feel guilt over something.