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exsilium2013-12-04 07:24 pm
fairyonacid) wrote in exsilium2013-12-04 07:24 pm
second pill ☂ ( video )
So how does death really work here? [It's a strange question to even be asking, but--]
I heard others died before. Here. Like dead dead. [Not that she's thinking about it, but the girl has predilections for. Well at least the reasons she has in the past aren't exactly here.]
Oh-- also anyone got any cigarettes for trade. I'd say I'd kill for some, but you know... [She wiggles her fingers before shutting the feed off.]
I heard others died before. Here. Like dead dead. [Not that she's thinking about it, but the girl has predilections for. Well at least the reasons she has in the past aren't exactly here.]
Oh-- also anyone got any cigarettes for trade. I'd say I'd kill for some, but you know... [She wiggles her fingers before shutting the feed off.]
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c'mon you can come up with something better than that
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i'm good at making things fall apart. but i suppose that's more by choice.[text]
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nothing ever really gets better. that's why you make it worse. you can get people to do what you want.[At least that's the only way she got what she needed back home. But then again she has really neglectful parents.]
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but that guilt trip crap has always been a good way to get me walking in the other direction
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it isn't about guilt. it's about necessity.[text]
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i'd only do it if they did. i'm not a horrible person. i've just learned a long time ago people don't really care by default. even if you do.[text]
most people aren't they're just caught up in their own shit
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doesn't mean it's right.[text]
its up toward the top of a long list of shit that isn't
i figure making shit better for yourself is a better long term plan than making it worse for other people until they get off their asses
at least you can control you
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that's why i do it. control. i don't have any, so i can control what i can, even if it makes things worse for me. i'm the one that ends up in hospital and then it's not so bad. it's quiet and people are nice to you. they listen.
even if it all stops eventually.
[Why yes. She is telling a stranger this.]
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why do you stay? if it's that bad, why not go?
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friends, i guess. most of them are a load of rubbish, but idk Sid said he cares. maybe i believe him. plus Chris' mom left him. maybe they need me.