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[it's evening, babydoll's settled on her cot. her katana and gun are next to her, waiting to be cleaned -- something she hasn't done recently -- while she's still in the clothes she came into exsilium with. she didn't want to sleep yet, and exploring the city day and night interested her. the device is held out in front of her and she offers a smile.]

I know things are bad right now, with this virus going around. If anyone needs it, I can help. I haven't come down with anything yet.

[she pauses, glancing down as if she wants to say something else. she holds back and moves on instead,]

After the virus has been rid of, I'd like a training partner. [she doesn't want to take any valued time away from the people who needed help.] I'd also be open to helping others train or people who needed help learning how to fight.

[it's going to help her bide her time as she thinks of an escape plan, or, even better, returns home after the next mission. that's what she hopes, anyway.]

[with that, the feed cuts.]

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[ when alisha speaks, she glances down. it's not out of shame. she doesn't feel anything for the man they killed, who was abusing their powers for his own personal gain, but maybe it's out of feeling shame for tricking her friends. she had manipulated simon out of a desire for normalcy, and to avoid a future that seemed so set in stone for them when powers were involved. she's not quite sure what she should be feeling, truly. ]

This guy had this power that took powers from people and he could give them to others. Sort of like a dealer, yeah? So, I gave him mine. And the prick who bought it, he died with it.

And now these people have given it back to you?

[she's not going to ask how he died, or what happened to lead her to give hers away. it must be something she's really doesn't want for her to give it away.]

I'm sorry.

It's not your fault, is it? [ alisha's shoulders lift as she glances off to the side. she's sulking, as always when it comes to her power, but it's weird for her to be on the receiving end of someone pitying her for it. everyone else, on some level, thinks she deserves it. ] I guess this is what you get when you do bad shit. Or something. Dunno if these guys in charge have a sense of humour.

[ she rolls her eyes, glancing back up to the communicator. there's a slight upward curve of her mouth. it's not funny, but it sure as hell is amusing on some level. ]

Thing is, I don't know if it's back - but they said it during that fucked up orientation, so ... It's got to be.

[babydoll shakes her head, brows furrowing slightly at her discomfort. she knows what it's like to feel alienated, alone. that she may, in some form, deserve what had happened to her. she made a mistake, and she regrets it every day.]

No -- I just, I know it can be hard. Going through something you don't want to happen.

[she can't help but ask this time, curiosity getting the best of her.]

What has to happen to let you know you have it?

Just something they said. [ or what she said. she had the choice to choose her own weapon, and a smart ass comment had been taken way too seriously. or maybe it was all just a big, fat joke, them making her think she had a choice to begin with. ] I haven't used it - fuck. I don't want to fucking use it ever again. But it's not like I've gotten my phone, yeah? That's something I would've chosen. Even if I can't send out messages or whatever.

[ she lifts her shoulders up. ] And it's the only thing I could really use as a weapon. I've got nothing.

I can help you.

[if alisha doesn't want to use her weapon, that's fine. but she should still try and learn how to fight, no one is useless. it's hard to comprehend sometimes, that's all.]

I know you have the potential to fight.

[ alisha is amused and taken aback and … well, she's not quite sure what any of these emotions really are. she's so used to flying under the radar, being protected, like she's not really capable of much, and those around her know it. it's weird, people having some sort of twisted faith in her. ]

[ she lets out a tiny laugh. ] You know that just by looking at me?

[baby shrugs a shoulder, smiling.]

Everyone has potential. It just depends if you use it or not.

[ alisha is not sure if she wants to use it. she can't do anything. she's afraid of triggering her power. she's spent most of her superpowered days playing follow the leader where she follows. ]

I just - [ how to backtrack? alisha thinks she's going to be out of here. she has no idea what this place is even capable of. ] -It's not my thing, yeah? My boyfriend does all that shit … Not me.

[boyfriend? her expression remains neutral, but it's a little concerning that alisha came from a place where she let a guy do everything for her. she doesn't ask about it; alisha can tell her if she wants to.]

Okay, that's fine. Just let me know if you change your mind.

Yeah - [ alisha nods, a little awkwardly. there's that smile again. sometimes, she's a real big social retard. ] I will. Bug you at a real great time, yeah?

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