oo2; anonymous text

[justthedriver]

If you know you're dying and won't be coming back, what would you die for?

I know I would die just to save one person. How sad it is that we don't have that choice here, yes?

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[justthedriver]

Why?

[wilder]

Uh, anonymous text?

i apologise for this tag

[justthedriver]

A/S/L?

omfg I laughed so hard

[wilder]

A/S/L?

even when depressed, nikolai is a troll. i'm almost sorry

[justthedriver]

Age/Sex/Location? Keep up.

never be sorry, a troll must troll

[wilder]

Jeez alright.

132/Y/Space.

[justthedriver]

How terribly old you are, grandmother.

[ He actually typed out a Russian phrase, one of those little kids are taught to say if they ever meet Baba Yaga. It's... not as funny in English, sadly. ]

[wilder]

I know, I know. You're all whippersnappers to me.

[justthedriver]

Or maybe you're younger than you seem, grandmother.

[wilder]

Maybe, maybe

Anyway, not sure I'm the right person for this question. Dying's no big deal to me.

[justthedriver]

Your death, or other people's deaths?

[wilder]

Mine, of course.

[justthedriver]

Good. Then I don't have to punch you.

Better question: Who won't you die for?

[wilder]

That's appreciated.

Hm. People who want to kill me. I can't make it easy for them, you know?

[justthedriver]

Very sensible of you.

[wilder]

I said my death's no big deal to me, I never said I was a doormat.

[justthedriver]

You've never said why.

[wilder]

[a pause]

A question for you first: what do you live for?

[justthedriver]

I survive.

[wilder]

Why?

[justthedriver]

Because it will be stupid to die for nothing.

[wilder]

Heh. Right.

[there's a pause before more he types more. He'll make it short and blunt, since it's anonymous and it's better than sharing his sad story]

Long story short, I was raised to be a sacrifice. They don't instill a love of living in you with that kind of purpose.

[justthedriver]

You were brought up to die, and they were stupid enough to tell you you're going to die.

Why didn't you stop it? Or run away?

[wilder]

Who says I didn't? I said I wasn't a doormat.

[There's a pause, debating if he should say it. Zelos is secretive at best. But...why not? What's he got to lose? It's anonymous and even if people found out- what would they do? Not trust him? Ha...they already didn't. At least maybe they'll think twice about trying to use him]

I didn't go along with it. I played sides, pitted them against each other- people wanted to use me before killing me. They tell us you're going to die thinking some will try to run and agree to any stupid plan just to be spared. They didn't count on one of them actually seeing through the trick and using it against them.

Did pretty well too. Two factions crushed, another damaged with the most moral of groups going in for the kill. Heard they were successful too - no one else will be raised like I was. There's gonna be a new future without that system.

[a pause]

...But I didn't see a place for me in that future, and I was tired of living. So I choose I died by my own terms, thinking I was helping someone I cared for.

'Course, the Initiative screwed that all up and turns out I didn't help them by dying but hey- that's just life for you, huh?

[justthedriver]

But you still managed to do something good with your life. [ Pause. ]

So living still turned out to be more useful than dying, yes? Even if you were tired of it?