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[the name associated with this post/account and all her subsequent comments herein (or elsewhere) is "Haruka Takahashi"]

I used to have dreams like this.

Well, not exactly like this, I mean. Nothing so specific. But you know how it goes, don't you? Girl dislikes her situation, the way her life is going, the way people treat her, wishes she were anywhere else but there. Then a strange thing occurs, and there's this whole other world that needs her, specifically her. This place sees her for who she is, sees her strengths and the change she wants, and it tells her that she's needed to save this other world. Protect it. She's the only one who can. Like a hero, a ruler, or something else. That part changes pretty easily, I think.

There's a lot of stories like that, too, of course. I don't think I'm the only one who's had a dream like that. We all have our little unhappinesses. And sometimes the new kingdom, she loves it so much she never wants to go home. Sometimes being there just makes her miss everything she left behind, and she does everything she can to go back.

Of course, when I say I used to have dreams like this, that would mean I woke up from them, too.

I suppose this is like that. In a way. It's been almost three weeks now, but I guess I'm still trying to get used to it, that's all.

What were your dreams? Did you have them? Or do you, still? Whatever they are, or were, I hope you keep in mind that you can't trust them. There's no Truth to dreams.

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People are hypocrites everywhere. But then, it also depends on your methods and goals, too, or the perceived likelihood of success.

wwell i cant imagine any sorta terms better than kill these guys then do wwhatevver the fuck you wwant
majority a wwhich is probably go home
dont get no more accommodatin than that

Well, there's your problem. You can't open the plan with "kill them" and expect a group of predominantly-humans to jump to sign their names.

Humans are afraid of death.

As a result, many are unwilling to inflict death on other humans, even if it means their own continued suffering.

There would need to be some sense of escalation before many people would even consider those ends.

yeah thats wwhat they keep tellin me
but fact a the matter is if they aint gonna do their part neither am i
i aint about to stick my neck out for a buncha freeloaders latchin onto others potential success just cause theyre afraid a doin wwhat has to be done
wwhich in itself leads back to the original point
id do plenty if it wwerent for evveryone else

Of course you would.

as a matter a fact i WWOULD
dont test me wwith your little attitude there wwhoevver the fuck you think you are it wwont end wwell for you
better folks havve tried

It's hardly any fault of mine if your myriad of hedges and "would"s sound more like an excuse for inactivity than some principled reservation of effort. I mean, if you're willing to sacrifice something that could benefit you, solely because it might also benefit others, that sounds like you don't value your own success or aspirations nearly as much as you seem to claim.

Though, sheesh, I can't say I was expecting Threats this soon. Should I be flattered, that I seem to have gotten you riled up so quickly? Or do you brag about "better folks" to everyone?

Edited 2013-02-26 16:02 (UTC)

i dont get more or less from doin anything here or not doin nothin either
ultimately once evverythin is settled here one wway or another im gonna get wwhat i wwant
so i dont miss out on SHIT by holdin out on burnin this place to the ground or somethin
besides that wwasnt a threat
just sayin if youre tryin to antagonize me solely then try harder cause that wwas a pretty piss poor attempt right there

[eridan dont evn lie u mad]

Haha. :) You're funny, too.

I'm sure if you repeat it to yourself enough times, you might be able to convince yourself of its veracity. Just don't expect me to fall for it.

[ ruka are you ever going to stop being a dick
~~no she will never stop being a dick~~ ]

[MUST MAINTAIN COMPOSURE

COMPOSURE HE NEVER HAD TO BEGIN WITH wwhat do]

right yeah ok
if you honestly think youre the first one to evven start pullin this bitch of an attitude at me you got it wwrong
only youre seriously fuckin terrible at it at that if this is really all you got

Oh, would you prefer I ask for pointers? On how to play up bitch attitudes, I mean, since you're so versed in the subject.

[ IF SHE PISSES HIM OFF AND PUSHES HIM AWAY ENOUGH
THEN MAYBE THE SENSE OF LOSS WON'T BE SO PAINFUL?? gurl u have problems ]

oh ha ha
tell you wwhat if it so happens for wwhatevver reason as unlikely as it may be i evven remember you exist after this convversation is ovver an done wwith ill be sure to point people wwho make my so called ATTITUDE seem dowwnright amicable your wway
youll be practically beggin to associate wwith me afterwwards instead

If your memory is as good as your level of comprehension, then I suppose you forgetting me will be inevitable.

What a shame.

And as much as I'm sure you'd Love to see me on my knees just for the opportunity to kiss the rings on your fingers, I think I'll pass.

my memory is FINE i just dont make a point a rememberin each an evvery one a you slack jawwed dirtscrapers considerin the rate you come an go at
besides wwhich i wwouldnt evven let you anywwhere near my rings
this aint some dirt cheap set a imitation gewwgaww you might be used to on earth
its high class finery the likes a wwhich your planets probably nevver evven seen reservved for only the most respected sort back on alternia
havvin you all ovver em wwould just dirty em unrepairable like

howwd you knoww i had rings anywway

I didn't, actually. It was a metaphor. But I'm glad to know that my occasional potshots are, in fact, based in reality, so Thank You for that.

[ ru are you ever gonna stop lying or being an asshole
the answer is
apparently no
not never ]

oh like that ONE THING ok yeah take wwhatevver petty vvictories you can get if it makes you feel any beter
considerin the amount a WWRONG you are otherwwise it really aint much

It's so flattering, that you're concerned about how well I'm feeling. It's only disappointing that your deflections and denials of the truth are so flimsy.

For someone banking on forgetting this conversation ever happened to assuage his ego, you seem to be getting a little over-invested.