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[the name associated with this post/account and all her subsequent comments herein (or elsewhere) is "Haruka Takahashi"]

I used to have dreams like this.

Well, not exactly like this, I mean. Nothing so specific. But you know how it goes, don't you? Girl dislikes her situation, the way her life is going, the way people treat her, wishes she were anywhere else but there. Then a strange thing occurs, and there's this whole other world that needs her, specifically her. This place sees her for who she is, sees her strengths and the change she wants, and it tells her that she's needed to save this other world. Protect it. She's the only one who can. Like a hero, a ruler, or something else. That part changes pretty easily, I think.

There's a lot of stories like that, too, of course. I don't think I'm the only one who's had a dream like that. We all have our little unhappinesses. And sometimes the new kingdom, she loves it so much she never wants to go home. Sometimes being there just makes her miss everything she left behind, and she does everything she can to go back.

Of course, when I say I used to have dreams like this, that would mean I woke up from them, too.

I suppose this is like that. In a way. It's been almost three weeks now, but I guess I'm still trying to get used to it, that's all.

What were your dreams? Did you have them? Or do you, still? Whatever they are, or were, I hope you keep in mind that you can't trust them. There's no Truth to dreams.

Comments

[heartsink]

Oh?

But is there reason behind those beliefs?

[aceordisgraced]

If a guy begs me to believe what he's saying despite all the things that go against what he says, I'll believe it because he asked me to.

[heartsink]

You trust people.

[aceordisgraced]

I do. What's wrong with that?

I'll trust my closest friends here. I'll trust the guy I saw on my way to lunch if he told me to trust him. If you ever need me to trust you, I'll trust you until the very end.

[heartsink]

I didn't say there was anything wrong with it.

But you shouldn't agree to that last one so easily.

[aceordisgraced]

Yeah, but I still haven't told you my real name yet anyway so we can both be cautious. But if I can't completely prove that you're lying, why deny that you might be being honest?

[heartsink]

It's a pretty big risk for "might."

[aceordisgraced]

I'm a poker player. I don't gamble money, but I'm fine with that sort of thrill.

[heartsink]

Why?

[aceordisgraced]

Why not? A life without trusting people sounds terribly lonely.

[heartsink]

Well. Maybe.

[aceordisgraced]

It would be for me. I had friends who trusted me, so I'll trust people in return.

[heartsink]

With that sort of logic, you would hurt people because you've been hurt.

[aceordisgraced]

Probably. But I'm a selfish guy, so I don't want to watch other people be untrusted and alone, either.

[heartsink]

I can't say that's how most people would use a word like "selfish."

[aceordisgraced]

A little unorthodox is okay, right?

[heartsink]

Well, maybe.

[aceordisgraced]

I'll take maybes. They're better than nos.

Anyway, dreams and trust and whatnot. I don't really get them, but I'll go with what my gut tells me.

[heartsink]

Is it telling you anything now?

[aceordisgraced]

Always. It tells me to keep on trusting.

[heartsink]

Has it ever told you to not?

[aceordisgraced]

Never. I won't lose trust without proof.

[heartsink]

How much proof do you need?

[aceordisgraced]

The absolute, undeniable proof. If there's a loophole, I won't accept it.

[heartsink]

You'll leave yourself defenseless at that rate.

[ badumtish. ]