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[ it's been a month and mithos has gotten pretty situated here. however, other than getting used to the new place when he could (aka when they're not being transported somewhere else) he hasn't really ... done much else.

and that has included meeting others and getting to know them. and now that the person he really knew from back home seemed to have been avoiding him a week or so ago he feels... lonely.

perhaps a bit more than he should. and within that a pile of other emotions that come with it. he's doing a good job trying to suppress them but it's only a matter of time.

but as an attempt to rid of them, a question. ]

How easy is it for some of you to make friends? Or even become acquainted with someone. I know some people find it easier than others, so if you find it easy what is it that makes it easy for you?

[ he already somewhat knows the answer to the other side of the question. and there is always the 'i don't care' answer but that is one he doesn't want to hear right now.

there is a small pause ]

And what do you do when you're alone with no one to talk to.

[ because he certainly feels like he has no one to talk to right now. maybe it's partially why he's making this? ]

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[ Anything more than the normal lifespan is uncomfortable to most. ]

And what should I do if I ever think that they are not worth it?

Then, your only option is to move on.

That is easier said than done.

Do you expect it to be easy? I never said it would be. If I were to venture a guess, and this is only a guess, you are not human. If that is the case, whatever I have to say will become irrelevant.

Are you saying that is is different for those who aren't humans to those who are? What about those who are partially human.

It takes a bit more effort for someone like you to understand human behavior. This is where I would recommend watching people instead of trying so hard to be like them. Do some research and see how they act and why.

Matters such as love, hate, friendship and rivalries are bit harder to explain and it even takes humans a lifetime to understand them. Have you heard the saying "Know thyself"?

All right. I Even though I'm half human I still don't understand much about how they act and why beyond why many of them hate those who are different. So I'll watch others and see how they act and why beyond that.

I've heard of it, but I haven't fully understood it.

It simply means to know yourself and therefore others will come to understand you. It's a natural course and it does take time but it isn't beyond anyone, human, half-human or even demons to know who they are.

It also can mean an understanding of your place in the world around you regardless if it's your home or not. Keeping that phrase in mind should help you. It helped me through some really difficult times.

In other words, the journey to understanding others is to understand yourself first. Who you are is just as important as the person you sit across in the lounge. Ask yourself simple questions like, do I really like shrimp or steak better? Do I like pink instead of blue? Those are only examples, but they do help.

Sometimes, it's not hate that drives others to make you believe such a thing, it's a lack of understanding that lead to that hate. People, in general, fear what they don't understand and they hate what they see in others as a part of themselves, if that makes any sense to you.

Yeah, that all makes sense. [ all to well. people fear him and his kind because they don't understand it. and it goes for both the elves and the humans in his world.

but everything that he said before that ... it made a lot of sense, and very helpful with what he intends to do in general. ]

So before I can try to eliminate the fear that people have I have to understand them more. And by doing that I need to learn more about myself. It'll be a long journey, but it would be worth it in the end.

I think you'll do just fine.

[He smiles through his tone.]

It's a journey worth taking and I think you'll have some fun with it too.

Thank you. I'm sure it will be a long journey, but if it is successful then it will be a worthy one. I'll... I'll try to make the most of it.

Excellent!