one (text) ♞ ❝stop right there, that's exactly where i lost it.❞

[curepotion]

Two questions.

If you can't control your power at first, how do you try to?

And if you don't have a power or magic... have you ever done something you regret?

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[morsecodes]

[Sorry, he gave up on trying to text a while ago.

And what he admits is something he hid for so long, but now that it was known, and making peace with the fact that it wasn't completely his fault, it was so much easier to say.]

I...couldn't control mine when I was younger. It didn't end well.

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[curepotion]

[ he doesn't feel comfortable enough here to go around spouting voice or video, so unfortunately, Leo gets text back. maybe he'll loosen up later in conversation.

... there's a significant pause before he responds, though. he understands that all too well. ]

Sorry.

Can you can control it now?

text;

[morsecodes]

[okay fine, he'll try texting, but you'll regret it shortly.]

Yea i cna now butt that doset fix what hapened

text;

[curepotion]

[ ... wh... what is that. he's trying to feel sympathetic, but... ah. hm. ]

You don't have to text back.

I know the feeling. It's why I'm asking now.

voice;

[morsecodes]

[Riku you're the best.]

Thank gods. Sorry dude, dyslexic.

So you want control? All I can say is practice. I tried not using mine for like, I dunno, years. Didn't do me a bit of good.

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[curepotion]

Dyslexic?

[ practice, huh. will that actually do any good? he thought control would come naturally, like everything does to him... but even without his darkness being manipulated by an outside source, just battling his inner darkness and negative emotions is increasingly difficult.

... but is he practicing the right way? what if there's more than one way? ]

What kind of practice do you do?

voice;

[selfloyalty]

You find someone to help teach you how to control these powers properly so you don't endanger yourself or others.

[lmao mages what what.]

And that second question is awfully intrusive, don't you think?

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[curepotion]

That kind of person doesn't exist.

No. You can answer with a 'yes' or 'no', or not answer at all.

voice;

[selfloyalty]

What sort of power is it? Perhaps there are those with abilities similar that can at least help you in the right direction.

[tsk. attitude from some text. there's a biting annoyance to her voice.]

The essence of the question still remains intrusive. Why include it at all when it's obvious that you only wanted an answer for your first inquiry?

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[curepotion]

[ nope nope nope nope nope the thought of someone with darkness here... similar to it? ]

I'm not looking for anything specific to my power. I want to know how it's different [ in other worlds-- ] for everyone.

Don't answer the question if you don't want to.

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[septim]

My father sent me to the nearest town's Mages Guild. There, I was taught how to control and focus my magic.

[curepotion]

A guild?

What kind of magic can you do?

[septim]

Yes. The Mages Guild is the organization that governs the studies and practices of magic in Tamriel.

Destruction, such as fire, frost and lighting. Conjuration, which calls forth weapons and creatures. Restoration, which heals wounds and removes ailments. There are other schools of magic but I don't practice them. [ Necromancy is forbidden, because it's wrong. He doesn't care for Illusion or Alteration, aside from a magelight here and there, needed to light up caverns, or for night readings. ]

[curepotion]

I've never heard of a guild before. Sounds useful.

Looks like the basic skills I have. How many others?

[septim]

And necessary. Without it, many mages would've died by their own hands.

Illusion, which involves manipulating the minds of others. Alteration, the manipulation of the natural world and its natural properties. Mysticism, spells which absorb, reflect, and dispel magic, move objects, sense life, and bind souls.

Then there's forbidden arts, such as necromancy and daedric magic.

Do you need help controlling your powers? If they're magic-based, I might be able to help you.

[curepotion]

[ Illusion... Zexion's area. the others don't ring any bells. hm. when the question comes, though, there's a moment of fight.

he does need help.

he has no idea if they're actually magic-based, however... just what is darkness based on? it seems more of emotion or will-based. and what's more, if it gets out of control, he can't guarantee this man's safety. ]

I don't need help. I just want to know how other people do it.

[septim]

[ This is a hypothetical question that, obviously, was asked because they're going through the proposed scenario. You can't, however, help those who don't want to be helped. ] Well then. If you change your mind, my name is Martin Septim. I'm a healer at the clinic, and I'm also at the library often.

[curepotion]

[ if he knew more about his own power, it'd be easier to ask for help.

what can you do when everyone that's held this kind of power in their hands has turned evil or don't truly exist? add in the fact that people constantly condemn people who hold his power to being "evil"...

just because one person didn't think it was so bad didn't mean everyone else did. but, however, learning that he's at the clinic... ]

Do you know John Watson?

[septim]

Yes. I work with him.

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[boughtabookstore]

Yes.

To the second.

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[curepotion]

[ ... he trusts John. besides people from his world, he's really the first person to earn his trust. if he works with John... ]

I don't know if my power's magic-based. Is there a way I can find out?

[curepotion]

How did you deal with it?

[boughtabookstore]

[ a long delay. what do you mean deal with it... ]

I lived with it.

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[septim]

I'm not familiar with magical phenomena from your realm, so I can't say.

( private )

[curepotion]

[ sigh... that's what he was afraid of. ]

So it's probably different for each world. I guess... I could try your way, if you're still up for it.