[Wait, what is he talking about, she was talking about - oh. Whoops. Katniss is sort of startled into silence by how blatantly she'd lost track of her own thoughts. Out of everything he's said, there's only one thing that really sticks out to her]
[still on a roll, getting hysterical:] She's going to die because I'm here and not there. It was my hunt. If anyone was going to die it was going to be me, and it — that would've been better. I already messed up once, and then this, which only proves it, but I have to fix it or she's. Dead.
[She shaking her head, trying and failing to make her thoughts fall into place properly. But she can't separate what he's saying from what she's thinking]
Why do you get to go back? What's so special about you and your mistakes that you think you should get a second chance? You screwed up! At least she's still alive, you can still save her now!
she's now the voice of insecurity constantly tugging at his attention. what's so special about you?
everything comes to a screeching halt on his end, save for small, rattled breaths. nothing is, that's the thing. he's always known that. more than he's known anything else.
[His floundering brings her up short, but Katniss is too tired and bitter to care all that much right now]
So long as she's still alive, you don't know what you're talking about. The guilt you feel, the worthlessness? It's nothing compared to what it'll be like if she actually does. And if you think the organisation that kidnapped us to fight their war for them really cares enough about what you did to help you make it better, you're blind.
The only people who do the same thing over and over and expect different results are the insane.
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She's not dead yet?
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Why do you get to go back? What's so special about you and your mistakes that you think you should get a second chance? You screwed up! At least she's still alive, you can still save her now!
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she's now the voice of insecurity constantly tugging at his attention. what's so special about you?
everything comes to a screeching halt on his end, save for small, rattled breaths. nothing is, that's the thing. he's always known that. more than he's known anything else.
floundering:] It...I...
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So long as she's still alive, you don't know what you're talking about. The guilt you feel, the worthlessness? It's nothing compared to what it'll be like if she actually does. And if you think the organisation that kidnapped us to fight their war for them really cares enough about what you did to help you make it better, you're blind.
The only people who do the same thing over and over and expect different results are the insane.
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