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[theguideless]

[backdated to the 3-4 a.m. hours after mission end/return!

just a brief video, though, because Marty's not having any of this. black rings under the eyes, a weary, frustrated look on his face...and one long huff as he manages to find the right button and switch that shit off.

text:]

John i need more of that medisin you gave me
Im sorry i didnt mean to run out so fast

Lee [lol Lea he can't spell] im sorry i dont think i can be a friend anymore
Sorry

Nobodys going to get to go back still are they?

Comments

[theguideless]

[OUT, DAMNED LOGIC.] They were really nice before i messed up its my fault

[septim]

Martin, how many people have you killed? Can you remember their faces? Their voices?

[theguideless]

Three

[septim]

I've lost count of how many I've killed. I can't recall their faces, or their voices. Not even their names. Some I killed with glee. Others I sent to their deaths because it was their duty to protect their Emperor.

Honor their deaths by not living in the past but working for a better future. Your future.

[theguideless]

Im not allowed
Im not a person like you
Im not aklowed to be around people i shouldnt have been i wont hurt anybody if im not around isnt that better/?

[septim]

You are a person. And no, that's not better. That's running away from your problems.

[theguideless]

[and there's the thing: Martin doesn't want to own up to anything he can hide from with ~*Darkov rules*~. because responsibilities and relationships are scary and hard.

not that he's worked it out to that level yet.]

The problem is having broken the rules

[septim]

No, the problem is that you're acting like a child. Rules are not infallible concepts. [ Which is an amusing admittance from the Emperor whose Empire's motto is THE EMPIRE IS LAW. THE LAW IS SACRED. ] Rules are guidelines, yes, but they are not absolute. Sometimes rules don't make sense and should be abolished. This rule of yours is foolish, because it's unattainable.

[theguideless]

Its how it is where im from
Darkovs dont talk with people

[septim]

And where I'm from I'm the Bastard Emperor who turned into a flame-wreathed dragon.

We're not where you're from.

[theguideless]

[staring at that sentence because if he stares at it it'll make more sense

r i ght...?

WHY IS EVERYTHING DRAGONS.]

Buti I dont think its right or honorble to anyone to do more things that hurt people
I dont know im sorry

[septim]

[ BECAUSE DRAGONS ARE AWESOME. ] The road to Oblivion is paved with good intentions. Sometimes people will get hurt, whether you want it or not.

If you don't learn from your mistakes and move on, I guarantee you that people will get hurt.

[theguideless]

[more pause because ugh his brain. gears sticking.]

I dont understand why just leaving everyone alone when im not needed isnmt better than bothering them

[septim]

Because that's not possible. You are needed. Otherwise you wouldn't be here.

[theguideless]

I dont make anything better

[septim]

Well then. I can't help those who don't want to help themselves. Akatosh bless you.

[theguideless]

Sorry