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[unmasking]

[There are some things you can't run from. For Peter, he's been trying to run, but things keep coming up, keep reminding him. He went a good month of pretending that he was just a normal guy who made it out of his world alive. It was a good lie. Even for those people who knew him as Spider-Man, no one needed to know that his final moments in his life were spent saving Aunt May. They didn't need to know that he had given his all and that he was actually happy with what he managed.

But there's dying. And then there's finding out you aren't dead. There's finding out that you have a whole new life, and that somewhere, in another dimension, a "you" managed to grow up. Sue knew him. Bucky knew him. Even that grumpy Nathan guy knew a Spider-Man. And for all that, he's been trying to make it less obvious that he's surprised that he grew up. It's been hard, and he knows it'll continue.

It has to, after all. With great power and all that, and this world has bigger problems than his.

But still, he sets out to ask this question, because he knows it's better to ask now than later. He had to be careful about what thing he said to Charlie that one day. When he phrases his question, he rereads it a couple times, taking out anything that sounds too much like him. The last thing Peter needs is someone tracing it back to him.

He's not ready for those conversations.]

I've got a question, but first, please don't try to trace this back to me. If you've already done that and broken my encryption, let's just pretend you didn't. [Also, you're a jerk, but he had to cut that part out. Too ... him.]

What happens if you died before you came here? What's left for me after this all ends? Before you ask, yeah, I definitely died.

I just thought I'd ask.

Comments

text | private | anon

[unmasking]

No other options?

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[motherofnemesis]

none that i'm aware of.

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[unmasking]

Talk about a downer.

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[motherofnemesis]

at least you get here?

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[unmasking]

Yeah, yeah, enjoy it while I've got it.

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[motherofnemesis]

a lot of life gets wasted

it's shitty. still happens. you get to live now, so live now. ignore the rest.

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[unmasking]

Out of curiosity, how would you say it gets wasted?

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[motherofnemesis]

you get too caught up in everything that you think has to be done

and then later you realize you've spent most of your life doing that and neglected the stuff that makes you happy

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[unmasking]

Seems kinda hard to do that here. What makes you happy.

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[motherofnemesis]

well you're definitely not wrong

but i don't think entirely impossible, all the time

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[unmasking]

Just gotta find new things, right?

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[motherofnemesis]

it's a lot more fun than just moping around about not being able to do the old things

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[unmasking]

What if I like moping?

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[motherofnemesis]

then you're pretty fucking weird and i can't help you, sorry

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[unmasking]

Well, I'll try to mope less because who wants to be weird?

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[motherofnemesis]

there you go then

you'll go places

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[unmasking]

My day's finally come.

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[motherofnemesis]

congratulations

use your power wisely