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[The message today is in text, because she doesn't want anyone to hear how her voice shakes or see how exhausted she is.]

I know there's a lot going on right now, so I'll keep this quick.

Anyone who knew Ellie Linton, she's gone back to her own war, about ten days ago, so if you were worried about not having seen her around, that's why. Sorry for not contacting people privately, it was a little hard to keep up with who all she knew.

[And maybe there's part of her that just didn't want to deal with having the same conversation over and over again.

This is easier.]

For our new arrivals: my name's Steph, welcome to our temporary moon base, feel free to get in touch if there's anything I can help with. This is my tenth month since arriving, so I know a thing or two.

I also wouldn't mind some sparring partners. Or if anyone wants to learn how to fight, I know about twenty different martial arts styles and I'm happy to teach people to defend themselves. Anything to help keep busy.

That's it from me, have a nice day, everyone.

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not just for this for everything. i mean greeting all the new arrivals and i saw your last message to everyone even though i didn't say anything

i mean you've just been really strong through this so thanks. i think it's important that people have something to look up to

[She's so glad she went with text for this, since it means that everyone is spared from seeing how she tears up when she reads Ahiru's message.

It's a little overwhelming, really, when she doesn't get a lot of positive feedback about, well, anything. And there's Ahiru saying something to look up to while talking about her. It's weird.

For a moment, she's tempted to make a joke and brush it off, but that's not really fair to Ahiru, and she wants her to know how much the words are appreciated. It stil takes her a while to respond, though, because she's literally at a loss for what to say.]

i'm just trying to do what i can to help, but. um. i'm glad that you think i did.

thank you, ahiru. it really means a lot.

it's true though really

[She's not sure about saying something this personal, but - she thinks it'll get the point across.]

i mean i didn't want to leave at all you know? i kind of got forced into the ship. and i was really angry, really really angry and afraid. but i heard what you said and it helped remind me that i can't give up no matter what. so it really helped me... i bet it's the same for others too

[Nooooooo.

While she started that annoucenment with some positivity, by the end she was left exhausted and wrung out after feeling like she'd been arguing with a brick wall, so it's nice, to know she did help.]

i'm sorry it had to happen like that, i hope you're doing okay now.

[And she really means that; she might have only talked to Ahiru a handful of times, but she seems like a sweet girl, and Steph doesn't like to think of her being upset.]

thank you for letting me know i helped. it's nice to know i'm on the right track.

yeah. i think everybody's sorry but it's not your fault. i'm a lot better now and i'll be fine so please don't worry about it

you're welcome.

i can worry if i want to ♥

hahaha nooo

well i mean yes but that doesn't mean you should!

but i'm really good at it!

[just joking around now because too many feels]

so am i but i bet you wouldn't want somebody worrying about you! haha

you can worry about me if you want

oh wow that's new! haha most of the time it's "nooo you don't have to worry about me i'm fine"

90% of the time "don't worry about me" really doesn't stop me from worrying about someone, so i probably shouldn't expect it to work the other way around

yeah i guess you've got a point

still people would do a lot to land in the other 10% though

i know.

i would too, most of the time, but i'm trying to be better about this stuff

[About letting people care and worry about her, she means.]

well you seem like you're doing good!

it's a work in progess, but thanks

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