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exsilium2013-09-30 11:51 am
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Well, here we are, on the moon. I know that this is a terrible tragedy, but like... this actually feels more like home than the surface did? I'm used to living in a smaller, enclosed space like this. This base is definitely smaller than the Mugunghwa, but it's at least on the same order of magnitude. It's familiar.
Which is... kind of becoming a problem for me. Until now, there was the disappearances and the evacuation to keep me nice and busy, but I think that was actually something I seriously needed.
It's like... I'm the security AI for the Mugunghwa, right? That position comes with certain directives, and among them is being completely dedicated to the survival of my ship and the people on it. I'm not programmed to protect the ship until I can't, and then do whatever I want, I'm programmed to protect the ship. Just because that's totally impossible for me now doesn't mean that the directive changes.
I've heard a saying that, for a captain, losing your ship feels like losing your wife. I guess for me, it's more like losing a husband. A man at least can move on and take a new wife, but...
I guess I'm gonna have to get used to this, one way or another. The feeling of being the Mugunghwa's widow. It's not like I'm going back any time soon.
Which is... kind of becoming a problem for me. Until now, there was the disappearances and the evacuation to keep me nice and busy, but I think that was actually something I seriously needed.
It's like... I'm the security AI for the Mugunghwa, right? That position comes with certain directives, and among them is being completely dedicated to the survival of my ship and the people on it. I'm not programmed to protect the ship until I can't, and then do whatever I want, I'm programmed to protect the ship. Just because that's totally impossible for me now doesn't mean that the directive changes.
I've heard a saying that, for a captain, losing your ship feels like losing your wife. I guess for me, it's more like losing a husband. A man at least can move on and take a new wife, but...
I guess I'm gonna have to get used to this, one way or another. The feeling of being the Mugunghwa's widow. It's not like I'm going back any time soon.
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But what about finishing high school? ... Even if I didn't have my idol career...
[Which made it hard just to get a boyfriend. But she'd always thought she'd get married someday! Just... not anytime too soon...]
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Huh? You're a woman too! [Sort of.] Didn't you say you had a job on that ship?
[She'd better not be implying what Rise thinks she's implying. Sure, she always planned on getting married and maybe having a family, but that would be after she can no longer be a popular idol and can maybe transition into less stressful (and more adult) acting or modeling...]
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[That's not something *Mute is happy about shouting, for what it's worth!]
I don't have anything to give to a husband! What's your excuse?
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... But still...]
What do I need an excuse for?
[She already told her why she's not married yet! Why she's not even considering marriage just yet. What else is there to explain?]