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Hey everyone,

This is a terrible situation no matter how you try to phrase it, and we had to make a frankly horrific decision.

It took me a while to learn this, so I wanted to say it in the hopes that it would help someone: no matter how awful it seems right now, you don't have to hate yourself. Hate the situation, hate the enemies, but it's not all your fault, no matter how much it might seem that way if you're used to always being able to save the day. I know because I've felt this way---just recently, actually.

I'm not saying it's definitely going to be all right. The memory will always be with us, and I can't look into our future to see for certain that it ends well. But I think we stand a chance of undoing the damage.

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Thanks for that.

I know a lot of us are feeling this way right now, but I'm not sure if hating the UE is going to help, either.

We have to find a way to fix things as soon as possible...

Right.

Hate might be the wrong word, but we need the resolve to keep going.

More than just resolve, I think. We need a plan.

Right.

They're going to need to stop being so tight-lipped with us if this is going to stand a chance of working. How can we plan when the Initiative won't share their ideas with us?

I don't know... But I guess we can start by finding a way to make the Initiative see that. We all need to work together on this, and in order to do so, there's got to be more trust - between both them and us.

At least, that's what I believe...

I'm working on these repair projects with them. They need to see that we're capable and we can help more if they trust us.

What are your plans?

Well. Whatever I can...

There are still parts of the base which aren't yet habitable, right? And I'm sure there'll be plenty of other chores that need to be taken care of. Oh, and we're going to need to get our hands on more supplies eventually.

And then there's finding a way to somehow...

[Undo this nightmare.]

Stop this massacre from happening.

It's a heavy burden, I know.

I'll probably be out gathering supplies too. Tools and construction equipment will be my first priorities---anything I can build specialized weapons and tools with.

I just hope we can come up with a viable solution. There's a lot to consider.

So, what types of tools and equipment are you going to need to make... [this one is not at all tech-savvy] whatever it is you're making?

For a generator?

It needs fuel and an engine to combust that fuel. The engine's easy enough, but the main problem is obtaining its fuel.

And I'm guessing there's something in particular that this "generator" uses as a fuel source, right?

Right. We'll need petroleum, but that was being mined throughout my era so it should be easy to siphon.

I see. I don't know anything about mining petroleum, but hopefully things will go smoothly.

Well, good luck with your projects. I'll do my best, too.

[Kaworu's happy to be hearing this coming out of Billy.]

We don't just stand a chance. We'll undo the damage for sure.

When you say it, I believe it.

[It can't be seen from here, but he's smiling faintly.]

Have you been touring our new home?

The progressive form "been touring" is not appropriate to describe my review of this place. I wonder how long so many people could survive on such relatively little oxygen if the life support begins to fail.

...not long. Given the population, I could give you a precise calculation.

In that case, we could escape if the transport pads were functioning...but then we'd be stuck sometime in the past for a while, or maybe permanently.

That's why I want to focus on reinforcing what we have already. I'm familiar with what's needed to maintain a livable environment out here. And...it's a little scary when the airlock opens.

I've almost fallen out one.

Would it be wise to begin to stockpile spacesuits? This place is conspicuously lacking in them.

I believe so. But the suits from my era are incredibly primitive compared to what's possible. They definitely need well-maintained oxygen supplies, and it might even be possible to find suits that allow for great mobility.

Something like my uniform, maybe. Or the uniforms from my previous space station stay.

Your "uniform"... you mean, what you were wearing on the train home?

Yes.

It's designed to protect us in combat---as ridiculous as it might look from the outside, the pressure distribution does work.

[someday... Billy is going to have to tell him about all of that. maybe sometime soon.]

Something like that would be ideal, I think. We need to be prepared for anything... all 300 or so of us.

Quite a few missions' worth of suits.

Maybe we can liberate some from the past as a shortcut.

In the meantime, though, I'm trying to help research what can be done to rewrite history for a better outcome. It's far more complicated than I expected.

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