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sᴏʟᴅɪᴇʀ BLUE ([personal profile] firstroar) wrote in [community profile] exsilium2013-09-11 07:27 pm

vii. voice

–omeone...

[a beat, a breath heavily drawn and shakily exhaled. sentences are punctuated with overlong breaks.]

Help me understand. Not one person I have spoken to recalls this mission...But she is still gone. [breath.] Physis is. Others, perhaps? I don't know. No one has any recollection...
salvagedsoul: (Q // do you want to know?)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-09-12 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
[it takes him a few minutes, even with hurrying. but when he's close enough, it's immediately obvious. this feeling is the feeling of Blue reaching into him. for once, it's a welcome feeling.]

Blue. Are you alright? [Blue should be able to sense the sentiment itself, but Kaworu says it out loud so he can project his voice, too.] Can you make it towards me?
salvagedsoul: (Q // sigh)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-09-12 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Soon enough, Kaworu shoves his hand through the miasma around him to grab Blue by the shoulders. His AT Field prickles against his own fingers for a moment, but he ignores it.

Wordlessly, he lifts one of Blue's arms and crouches to pulls the frail man's weight onto one shoulder. Even if he were heavy, it would be no task for Kaworu to lift him from the bench as he straightens himself again.
]

Blue.

[This is heartbreaking in a way that is very foreign to Kaworu. He has never respected someone as deeply as this man, and to see him like this is bizarre.

The tablet had clattered to the ground. Kaworu glances at it for a moment, and it floats upwards into the air and into his free hand.
]

...Blue, pull yourself together.
salvagedsoul: (Q // do you want to know?)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-09-13 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
There's no point if it will just return you to slumber.

[Kaworu doesn't need to know Physis well to know she wouldn't want Blue to be doing this to himself. And on top of that... he has a suspicion that assistance from other Transports is only going to work on Blue for so long.

At this point, it's probably better if Blue isn't even putting out the effort to stand. Kaworu's feet shift, and he gently tries to coax him backwards, so he can scoop him up in both arms.
]

I will carry you back. Please, Blue... You must save your strength...
salvagedsoul: (Q // sigh)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-09-13 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[Kaworu nearly winces at such a piercing feeling coming from someone he so closely associated with serenity. He had been trying to interrupt the anguish he was in with a quick retrieval, to snap him out of it, you could say - but now, that strong resentment is making him pause.

He fixes his red eyes on Blue's tense face.
]

I know... I know.

[it wasn't long ago that Kaworu was feeling this way - and got himself in a horrible predicament from it.]

...We'll look together. I'll carry you like this, and you won't have to exert yourself.
salvagedsoul: (doujin // stare)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-09-14 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
[Yes, rely on him. Rest as much of it on his shoulders as you need to, Blue. Because his body is immortal; there is an endless source of life within his chest. Blue, on the other hand...

Kaworu's feet lift from the ground, and he slowly rises high into the air and above the buildings. From up here, they can search. If Blue didn't have the strength to stand up from that bench, he didn't have the strength to fly like this.
]

Just keep your mind open as we move. You could sense her before I see her.

[Thankfully, the weather is not so bad today - it will be easier to look. But even as Kaworu thinks that as he floats over the city, scanning the sidewalks, he is certain they will not find Physis.

What he's feeling more and more certain of is that this is an omen of something bad.
]

... Do you resent that I am helping you like this? [the question comes after a solid ten minutes of silent searching. Kaworu glances back at Blue's bitter expression.]
salvagedsoul: (// free will)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-09-14 12:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[Blue is special. Blue can just make others feel better, even against their will. Kaworu isn't capable of that. And as much as he wants Blue to calm himself, these feelings are genuine. They're flowing from the pressure and uncertainty of this situation.

His eyes return to the city - for now, it's probably best not to make eye contact.
]
salvagedsoul: (fanart // impact)

[personal profile] salvagedsoul 2013-09-16 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[This only enforces Kaworu's suspicions of what could be going on.]

Is her ID still registered in the network?

[Kaworu already knows the answer, but perhaps if Blue has not looked yet, the sight of her name still there will comfort him.

With his eyes still averted, he squeezes Blue gently as he lays limp in his arms.
]

Physis isn't the only one. There are others... half a dozen have done this, by now...