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† Nagisa Kaworu ([personal profile] salvagedsoul) wrote in [community profile] exsilium2013-08-05 05:58 pm

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Hello, everyone.

I have been in United Earth territory since June. I was released last week. Although I have been inspected and declared safe by the Initiative, I feel that it is my obligation to notify you all of what happened.

I am very eager to see some of you again. I am staying in my assigned housing at 502 while I continue to recover. Please come by at your convenience.



((feel free to use this post for both network conversations and action!))
reassures: (flicker ☙ cuz they're calling me home)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-11 06:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Her wings flutter, and Nill is quick to lift a hand, shaking both it and her head at the same time with a more awkward smile. Her typing is only slightly slower than someone talking might be - she leaves no doubt that she's been doing things this way for a fairly long time.]

There's no need for you to write back. I love it when people talk.

[Her wings settle again. She reaches over for her own cup, and takes a tentative sip, though she shows no outward sign that him not drinking his bothers her.]
reassures: (dim ☙ not sure if I can resurrect you)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-13 02:49 am (UTC)(link)
[She's found that most people can't pick up her body language. They can to some extent, but it's useless for more specific things - this has always seemed the better alternative.

A few years back she new someone that could flawlessly read lips. They had some of the most enjoyable conversations of her life at the time. But of course, like most of the other people Nill had known, that man is gone now, and Nill does not expect others to understand her easily anymore.]


Chamomile. I hope it's okay.

[Truthfully, most of the tea here isn't very good. It all has a sort of old, stale quality to it. But she thought chamomile might be a good, calming tea for him. Even sitting with him now, she's not sure what state he's in physically. The fact that he's still in bed, however, is telling enough.]
reassures: (shine ☙ i do adore the way you are)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-13 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[Another small smile. She reaches for her own cup, and takes a brief sip, before settling the cup between her hands, on her lap.

She doesn't reach for her tablet again immediately, though the admittance of him not realizing she was a woman makes her giggle very quietly (a strange sight - there's no voice, so though it looks like laughter, it sounds more like a strange huffing). Somehow people could usually guess that she was a girl, though she had no idea why.

As for herself... she was rarely comfortable with talking about herself. But for his sake, maybe she could answer a few questions.]


A very good friend of mine didn't know I was female until we met in person, too.

What would you like to know about?
reassures: (dim ☙ i am playing god)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-14 01:14 am (UTC)(link)
[She offers a brief smile - slightly and fainter than the others - and extends her wings to their full length, to give him an idea of her range of motion and how much control she has of them. Then they settle against her back again with a flutter to get her feathers to settle. That's literally the most common question she gets asked.]

No. I might have been able to if they were this size when I was a infant-- they're much too small to lift my weight.
reassures: (fade ☙ they hurt like hell)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-17 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
[She nods to confirm his guess. She'd left the information open ended, and he had made the right assumption by it.

That question, however, is a bit more complicated. Instead of frowning though, she takes a moment to sip from her tea, silently debating how to word a response. She's found... there are very few ways to paint her world in a positive light.

She doesn't take long - she's careful not to, in the hopes that he won't think it was a bad question to ask. There was no reason he shouldn't have, complicated though it might be.]


It's not common, but it's not abnormal. I think at least 1/4 of the people in my world have features like this.

Wings are not common at all-- and compared to others, I look very "normal". I know a boy with a horn like a ram, men with faces that look like lions, and other men with faces and teeth like boars.
reassures: (spark ☙ shooting down arrows of patience)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-20 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a very good reason to paint it in a positive light. Painting it otherwise gives more away than she's typically comfortable with, make her lies start to come apart at the seams. One question leads to another, and another, until they realize that almost everything she has told them is a lie.

She's pretty sure she's never had the opportunity to lie that much to Kaworu, though, and at the very least she doubted he'd be the type to go telling people. He's smart enough to realize people are treated differently, and he'd be smart enough to realize she was lying if she said they were all treated fairly and equally.]


No.

Humans like me are descendants of genetically modified humans. Other humans thought their experiments would surpass them, so they gave them all limits to make them "less than human". They still do that today if they can get hold of anyone like me.

Not all normal humans are like that, but most of them are.
Edited 2013-08-20 00:53 (UTC)
reassures: (shine ☙ i live to make you free)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-21 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
I know. Humans are always afraid of things they don't understand, even if those things are of their own making.

[Humans are terrible sometimes-- no, more than just sometimes. They do terrible things to people that don't deserve it. But...

Worlds with seasons and stars and a sun and moon are so beautiful, and humans are too, in their own way.

She sits there, motionless for a moment, before another small smile spreads across her face.]


I try not to hold it against them.
reassures: (shine ☙ so i tell myself I'll be strong)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-22 07:19 am (UTC)(link)
[Nill watches quietly and carefully, trying to see if his movements give anything of him away. He was gone for a long time, and she has plenty of reason to be worried about what kind of injuries he might have brought back with him.

After a moment she giggles, not exactly because what he said is funny, but... maybe because it's sad.]


I'm not very merciful. I'm not very forgiving anymore either. I just try to do what I can.
reassures: (shine ☙ if you'll be my star)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-25 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
[He's a very odd boy - that much is obvious, although Nill is sure that's less because he isn't human, and more because he's just the way he is. In a way it's almost nice. He's much more mature than a lot of people she's known, Heine included; What Kaworu had in neutrality and calm Heine had in anger and demons.]

I was before I knew what to expect from people.

[Before she realized the severity of her situation. Years ago she would never have thought the people here would eventually turn against them - now she had seen it coming miles away.]
reassures: (dim ☙ my beloved was weighed down)

[personal profile] reassures 2013-08-28 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
I expect people like the Natives to reject people like the Transports immediately. I expect to be put in terrible situations, and for the people responsible for it to not care-- for Transports to be just as awful as Natives at times. I expect no one to look after the people I love outside of myself.

[She frowns down at the message, unsure of how to word this properly. It's strange to put a concept - a feeling - she hasn't really discussed into words.]

I expect the world to be a cruel place, regardless of what world it is-- but I also expect some people in those worlds to be very kind.
Edited 2013-08-28 05:58 (UTC)