† Nagisa Kaworu (
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exsilium2013-08-05 05:58 pm
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Entry tags:
- asuka langley soryu (evangelion),
- billy cranston (power rangers zeo),
- cesare borgia (the borgias),
- collette (animorphs),
- kanaya maryam (homestuck),
- kaworu nagisa (evangelion),
- kyouko sakura (madoka magica),
- nill (dogs: bullets & carnage),
- oz vessalius (pandora hearts),
- roslyn small (original),
- sayaka miki (madoka magica),
- sheryl nome (macross frontier),
- shintaro kisaragi (kagerou days),
- soldier blue (toward the terra),
- yoshiya kiryu (the world ends with you),
- ✝ commander shepard (mass effect),
- ✝ sango (inuyasha)
05: † text
Hello, everyone.
I have been in United Earth territory since June. I was released last week. Although I have been inspected and declared safe by the Initiative, I feel that it is my obligation to notify you all of what happened.
I am very eager to see some of you again. I am staying in my assigned housing at 502 while I continue to recover. Please come by at your convenience.
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I have been in United Earth territory since June. I was released last week. Although I have been inspected and declared safe by the Initiative, I feel that it is my obligation to notify you all of what happened.
I am very eager to see some of you again. I am staying in my assigned housing at 502 while I continue to recover. Please come by at your convenience.
((feel free to use this post for both network conversations and action!))
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Looking up from his own tablet, he smiles again with a newer glimmer in his tired eyes.]
It's not inconvenient. Would you prefer me to write back, or speak?
[so far, he's ignoring the tea.]
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There's no need for you to write back. I love it when people talk.
[Her wings settle again. She reaches over for her own cup, and takes a tentative sip, though she shows no outward sign that him not drinking his bothers her.]
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The tea smells good. [He's only drank water for the past six weeks. When he takes the tea, he brings it close to take a deep breath of its scent.] What kind is it?
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A few years back she new someone that could flawlessly read lips. They had some of the most enjoyable conversations of her life at the time. But of course, like most of the other people Nill had known, that man is gone now, and Nill does not expect others to understand her easily anymore.]
Chamomile. I hope it's okay.
[Truthfully, most of the tea here isn't very good. It all has a sort of old, stale quality to it. But she thought chamomile might be a good, calming tea for him. Even sitting with him now, she's not sure what state he's in physically. The fact that he's still in bed, however, is telling enough.]
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[Kaworu finally takes a long sip, and sets the cup back down. He looks back at her with a heavy eyelids and a muted smile.]
You know, I didn't know you were female. Now that you're here, I would like to learn more about you.
[it would be a welcome distraction from the silence of his room, which only encourages him to obsess over what had happened.]
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She doesn't reach for her tablet again immediately, though the admittance of him not realizing she was a woman makes her giggle very quietly (a strange sight - there's no voice, so though it looks like laughter, it sounds more like a strange huffing). Somehow people could usually guess that she was a girl, though she had no idea why.
As for herself... she was rarely comfortable with talking about herself. But for his sake, maybe she could answer a few questions.]
A very good friend of mine didn't know I was female until we met in person, too.
What would you like to know about?
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... Can you fly? [are they even attached to her?]
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No. I might have been able to if they were this size when I was a infant-- they're much too small to lift my weight.
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[Although she's already identified herself as human, Kaworu can't help but look away from those wings. Maybe because there are so few people here who are like him. Human-shaped, treated like a human by others, but not human. Especially now, with the discovery that Kaworu's closest friend in this category had left Exsilium while he was gone.]
Is it common for humans to have characteristics like this in your world?
[her gentle but obviously rehearsed response to his last question makes him feel safe in asking this without coming off as rude.]
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That question, however, is a bit more complicated. Instead of frowning though, she takes a moment to sip from her tea, silently debating how to word a response. She's found... there are very few ways to paint her world in a positive light.
She doesn't take long - she's careful not to, in the hopes that he won't think it was a bad question to ask. There was no reason he shouldn't have, complicated though it might be.]
It's not common, but it's not abnormal. I think at least 1/4 of the people in my world have features like this.
Wings are not common at all-- and compared to others, I look very "normal". I know a boy with a horn like a ram, men with faces that look like lions, and other men with faces and teeth like boars.
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I see.
[Her wings are still magnetic, even knowing that they aren't particularly special or empowering. The nature of Lilim makes him worry for the situation she may have been living in before coming to Exsilium.]
Are humans like you treated well by the others?
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She's pretty sure she's never had the opportunity to lie that much to Kaworu, though, and at the very least she doubted he'd be the type to go telling people. He's smart enough to realize people are treated differently, and he'd be smart enough to realize she was lying if she said they were all treated fairly and equally.]
No.
Humans like me are descendants of genetically modified humans. Other humans thought their experiments would surpass them, so they gave them all limits to make them "less than human". They still do that today if they can get hold of anyone like me.
Not all normal humans are like that, but most of them are.
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His wondering gaze seems to soften at that explanation. She is like him, in a way.]
Fear of the unknown is unavoidable. Humankind has progressed to its current advanced state by ceaselessly threatening what lied in the darkness, torch in hand.
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[Humans are terrible sometimes-- no, more than just sometimes. They do terrible things to people that don't deserve it. But...
Worlds with seasons and stars and a sun and moon are so beautiful, and humans are too, in their own way.
She sits there, motionless for a moment, before another small smile spreads across her face.]
I try not to hold it against them.
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[He sets his tea cup back. Slowly, he slips back and under the covers until he's laying down, staring up at the ceiling.]
There are few in the world who retain mercy and forgiveness after being wronged.
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After a moment she giggles, not exactly because what he said is funny, but... maybe because it's sad.]
I'm not very merciful. I'm not very forgiving anymore either. I just try to do what I can.
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"Not anymore"?
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I was before I knew what to expect from people.
[Before she realized the severity of her situation. Years ago she would never have thought the people here would eventually turn against them - now she had seen it coming miles away.]
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And what do you expect?
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[She frowns down at the message, unsure of how to word this properly. It's strange to put a concept - a feeling - she hasn't really discussed into words.]
I expect the world to be a cruel place, regardless of what world it is-- but I also expect some people in those worlds to be very kind.