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Well. It ah. Seems I'll have some time on my hands until I get some repairs finished. Fortunately I'm still mobile via my holomatter avatar so any students who I am tutoring should have no break in schedule and everything else is business as usual...

I do have a question however.

I'm just wondering, what is it that humans and other organics do for fun? Or at least to occupy your time?

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My ancestor. My genetic twin.

Haha, but aren't organics supposed to be like those related to them? Isn't that how it works?

What, you mean a brainwashed empire slave? Yeah, funny thing, I never got that far!

Well no, I mean it's just that you're so...

Well. Never mind. Either way, you seem frustrated. Is there something I can help you with?

[ He thinks he remembers how to deal with this sort of thing. He's spoken to a few trolls before and he's starting to understand, just a little maybe. ]

I'm tho what.

[He is frustrated, but... it's more a "generally frustrated at life" thing. There's really no stopping it.]

Well I mean. It's just that Helmsman is so patient and gentle... and. Yeah. Guess I don't see the resemblance.

And I'm sure if you knew him before he wath tortured into being thubmissive you'd see the resemblance fine.

It'th a genetic resemblance anyway, not a perthonality one.

I think I'd still have liked him either way. Helmsman is my friend. I don't like what happened to him, but I like him regardless.

[ There's a brief silence. ]

Oh, well. I guess that makes more sense.

Congrats, you like him. Don't compare uth by saying you like that he's all calm and gentle when that'th only becauthe he'th forced to be that way.

[I am sorry Drift, he is just being a hassle in general.]

Mmmm. And who are you, anyways? Besides being related to him.

Thollux Captor.

Ohh. You're that Sollux. Helmsman used to talk about you.

... What did he thay?

Oh, not much really. Usually it came up when we spoke about his... hm. Liberation, so to speak.

Come on dude, tell me detailsth.

He was upset you were trying to get him to shed his biowires. I had questioned him not wanting to shed his chains as well, but he-

Well. I'm sure you're more than aware. Sometimes one can find comfort in what they know, even if that is their own bonds.

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No. I don't understand. If you're given the opportunity to be free you take it.

Sometimes people need time to heal before they can realize that.

And I was helping with that. You can't expect him to heal on his own if he still had the LITERAL attachments to the ship still on him.

He wasn't ready. I think the first step is letting him feel accepted and comfortable before you start making drastic changes to his body. And it's his choice in the end.

It wath his choice.

[Although Sollux was pushing for a lot more wires to be pulled.]

It'th not anymore. Now that he'th... fucking gone.

You can't force someone to be who they were. Not after something like that. He needed friends, not someone trying to change him.

And I'm sure you underthtand perfectly how it feelsth to thee essentially an older version of yourthelf a slave to an Empire you'd rather see destroyed.

It'd be pretty hard to know exactly what you're feeling. But he's a person too. If it's hard for you to watch, imagine what it's like for him.

You have to be gentle with people.

He couldn't even acknowledge that he wasn't a computer! Despite overwhelming tons of evidence!! Like, wow, skin!! And wow, blood!! He didn't know at all what he was putting me or himself through!

Being gentle with people just gives them the right to walk all over you, or to let things stay the same. You can't be gentle with anyone.

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