10 - [Video]

[biwinning]

[So Sollux thought it'd be a good idea to see what Earth movies are like. And with Crank as his only basis thus far, he's 1. not impressed, and 2. confused on a few things.]

Hey.

That movie that was shown last night, used a lot of words I don't know. Human vernacular ith really stupid and weird. Tho everyone should tell me all the thwear words they know and what they mean. There were like twenty onesth I didn't know in that movie, and I thtill don't get what they meant. Thith ith for educational purposes, of course.

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[heartsink]

That's all I was wondering.

If he's a friend of yours, I hope you'll get the chance to see him again.

[biwinning]

ii've giiven up on that at thii2 poiint.

[heartsink]

Already? That's a surprise.

[biwinning]

ii've ju2t giiven up iin general at 2eeiing all of my friiend2 at one tiime agaiin.
ii haven't 2een aradiia iin more than half a 2weep.
and when ii have 2een karkat, iit'2 been 2pariingly and dii2tant.
why bother.

[heartsink]

I don't, myself. But then, I don't expect to find even one person here that's important to me and vice versa. I gave up on hope—for myself, specifically—a long time before I ever got here.

[biwinning]

...
iit'2 better off that way anyway.
hope ii2 for lo2er2.

[heartsink]

Or people who can weather disappointment.

Why the ellipsis?

[biwinning]

my "traiil of fiinii2h crumb2" ii2 meant two denote thought.

[heartsink]

I'll remember that. The term, I mean. Anyway, I thought I'd ask, in case it was an omission.

[biwinning]

what, me giiviing up on hope?
ii gave up on that a long a22 tiime ago.
becau2e ju2t relyiing on hope two get you through 2hiit doe2n't help anyone.

[heartsink]

Something like that, yes.

I'm not used to *not* being the only deliberately hopeless one.

[biwinning]

2ollux captor, 2peciialiiziing iin doom and doomed acce22oriie2, at your 2erviice.

[heartsink]

Hah. Haruka Takahashi. Genre-savvy paranoid insufferable know-it-all. Unfortunately, I can't say that's nearly as useful as doomed accessories.

[biwinning]

doomed acce22oriie2 are partiicularly u2ele22 fiigment2 that no one want2 2o ii doubt that.
beiing a paranoiid iin2ufferable know-iit-all can 2tiill endear you two 2ome people ii'm 2ure.

[Like himself.]

[heartsink]

[ no sollux don't do it
it's all lies and fabrications. ]

What a horrifying thought.

[biwinning]

what, that 2omeone would liike you for your negatiive traiit2?

[heartsink]

Well. A little broader than that.

[biwinning]

then what?

[heartsink]

For any of them. It's too much of a hassle.

[biwinning]

what.

[heartsink]

When people are endeared to someone, they start caring, and in caring feel as though they have some personal stake in that person's life.

It's cumbersome.

[biwinning]

yeah, ii know.
but even iif you don't fully tru2t 2omeone you can 2tiill enjoy theiir pre2ence a2 long a2 you can accept that iit ha2 half a chance of ju2t dii2appeariing overniight.

[heartsink]

Even a number like that is too optimistic for me. I don't mean to disappoint, but I'm no good at something like friendship anymore.

[biwinning]

ii u2ed two have a friiend who wa2 conviinced friiend2hiip wa2 a dii2ea2e.
but we 2tiill talked.
kiind of.
eiither way.

[heartsink]

Yeah. I'm not a complete misanthrope just yet.

If expectations are maintained at a suitable level, then I don't mind.