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[theguideless]

[forward this to about 3-4 in the morning.]

Hello
Is anyone awake?

Comments

[whatsupcroc]

I get what you mean. Or I think I do! Is he family or just that close a person to you?

[theguideless]

He was my father there

[whatsupcroc]

( Oh. Yeah... yeah, with family, she can get that feeling. )

Do you miss him?


... Why the past tense?

[theguideless]

[slight delay.]

Its really ahrd to explain
But its also really strange I was so unhappy and afraid to think about him before
And I feel strange now but not the same
Its different .

[whatsupcroc]

Kinda sounds like you're changing. Which usually is good? I don't know, that's what people tend to say. You grow up and you can handle things differently than when you were younger. Maybe it's like that for you and being here and thinking about there.

[theguideless]

I know I have changed but its still strange to me
I didnt think about it how different it would seem because it already was different before I thought about it./

[whatsupcroc]

When you're the one changing doesn't it sorta make sense that it's weird to you because you're always changing and not seeing as it happens? So by the time you get back around to things you haven't thought about for a while, it doesn't feel all that different because the changes are -- wow I'm lost sorry basically people change it makes sense how you feel changes 'cause that always happens doesn't it?

But it seems like it's good if you're not scared and afraid to think about him any more and can take even the bad stuff and see the good stuff if it's there and all! So... good work! I'm glad it's better than it used to be.

[theguideless]

[delayed because a) he's gotta read and b) he's gotta read and then process IT TAKES A LOT.]

I think I understand what your saying thank you
Thinking this way made me realize that I can talk about some things now I was to scared to before
Im going to do that

[whatsupcroc]

Good! And good luck with it!

( She hesitates before sending, considering something that'd been said to her months ago by someone gone since then. It'd meant a lot to her at the time. It's an offer she hasn't expressly made before, but... It never hurts. )

If you ever feel like talking, about any of those things or really anything else, I'm happy to listen. I mean, I'm really good at talking, but I'm a pretty good listener, too. So feel free to message me whenever, or call if you want to actually speak with someone, or something.

( Thanks for that, Isaac. Regardless of the offer meaning anything to Martin, it feels good to pay forward something that had been a great kindness to herself. )

[theguideless]

[another delay.]

Would that make us friends?

[whatsupcroc]

Yep! Pretty much. Or at the very least, friendly acquaintances, but I'll admit, I prefer friends.

[theguideless]

I like that to
Thank you

[whatsupcroc]

You sure say thank you a lot! And you're welcome, but really, I'm thanking you too! Friends are one of the best things anyone can have. Good friends, that is.

[theguideless]

I used to say sorry a lot I think thank you is better

[whatsupcroc]

Thank you is much better! Sorry makes you seem sad and timid all the time, thank you is... I dunno, warmer.

[theguideless]

I used to be like that but I want to be warmer now

[whatsupcroc]

( No Collette this guy was blushing at fat babies in paintings you cannot make an innuendo leave that to like the pros

Vanadi or Adam or something )

I bet you're doing better! What else have you been doing to get warmer lately?

[theguideless]

[WOW RUDE HATE TOWARD PPL WHO NEVER SAW BABIES IN THEIR LIFE!!]

Someone got me a coat but thats not the same thing [LOOK HE'S TRY..ING....TO BE FUNNY...TRY....]

[whatsupcroc]

( excuse you for hiding away from spawn all your life ok ok!!! and she... laughs.... at the attempted joke )

Hah! Maybe not, but it's one of the creative ways to stay physically warm.

( stopping there ok yes good good Colls )

[theguideless]

Yes
Ive been colder here than iI used to be [BEING HUMAN IS DIFFICULT.]

[whatsupcroc]

You've got to stay properly bundled up now! Do you have a scarf and gloves and hat to go with the coat? Good shoes too, those are supposed to be a big help.

[theguideless]

I have nice shoes and iI may be getting gloves soon.

[whatsupcroc]

Then a scarf and a hat are all you have left! You should go down to the market this week and look at what people are selling. The wool ones are kind of scratchy, but they're nice and warm. I'm not sure if it's real wool or not. I don't think it matters!

[theguideless]

You mean from sheep?

[whatsupcroc]

Yes! I wonder if it's wool if it comes from llamas and alpacas...