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[theguideless]

[forward this to about 3-4 in the morning.]

Hello
Is anyone awake?

Comments

[whatsupcroc]

It depends! These days I go fl... I go out sometimes but it used to be that I'd read or watch something on tv or find someone else who was awake and avoid the nurses when I was in the hospital. It was kind of like having little adventures!

[theguideless]

What are nurses in a hospital/?

[whatsupcroc]

Have you met Peter? He's a nurse. Wait, wait, back up, do you know the clinic and the people who work there? A nurse is someone who works with sick people to make them well. A hospital is a place where people go when they're sick or need to be taken care of sort of when they're not entirely allowed to take care of themselves or can't entirely.

We have a hospital here, and it's not too bad. The clinic is like a really small not as intense or long-term stay version of a hospital!

[theguideless]

Oh

[a delay.

Peter, huh...]

I understand now thank you.

[whatsupcroc]

You're welcome!

( belatedly glad he didn't ask why she'd been living in one. some things are more fun for not being talked at. like at all. )

1/2

[theguideless]

I kn

[wait.

WAIT SHIT NO HE'S TYPING WITHOUT THINKING NO IT SENDED

COME BAAAAACK.]

[theguideless]

Sorryi my hand hit the button

[whatsupcroc]

( No he was totally typing something there -- Collette quirks an eyebrow up and feels slightly more awake in being curious. Suspicious!!! )

You kn...? You know? What were you typing before you had a hand spasm and cut yourself short? :o

[theguideless]

[aslkf;j; QUICK]

I knoww about the clinci

[whatsupcroc]

( Squinting so suspiciously )

Yeah that I kind of figured when you said you understood so are you sure that's what you were saying you know?

[theguideless]

[dsfkl;.]

It wasnt im sorry I wasnt thinking good

terrible state to be in!

[whatsupcroc]

Okay so what was it you were saying you know?

[theguideless]

I was saying i know a Peter
bUt not that one

[whatsupcroc]

( Oh sounds legit to her. )

From here or from home?

[theguideless]

Where I was from.

[whatsupcroc]

Good memory or bad memory?

[theguideless]

Everything about him will awlays be good even the bad memorys

[whatsupcroc]

I get what you mean. Or I think I do! Is he family or just that close a person to you?

[theguideless]

He was my father there

[whatsupcroc]

( Oh. Yeah... yeah, with family, she can get that feeling. )

Do you miss him?


... Why the past tense?

[theguideless]

[slight delay.]

Its really ahrd to explain
But its also really strange I was so unhappy and afraid to think about him before
And I feel strange now but not the same
Its different .

[whatsupcroc]

Kinda sounds like you're changing. Which usually is good? I don't know, that's what people tend to say. You grow up and you can handle things differently than when you were younger. Maybe it's like that for you and being here and thinking about there.

[theguideless]

I know I have changed but its still strange to me
I didnt think about it how different it would seem because it already was different before I thought about it./

[whatsupcroc]

When you're the one changing doesn't it sorta make sense that it's weird to you because you're always changing and not seeing as it happens? So by the time you get back around to things you haven't thought about for a while, it doesn't feel all that different because the changes are -- wow I'm lost sorry basically people change it makes sense how you feel changes 'cause that always happens doesn't it?

But it seems like it's good if you're not scared and afraid to think about him any more and can take even the bad stuff and see the good stuff if it's there and all! So... good work! I'm glad it's better than it used to be.

[theguideless]

[delayed because a) he's gotta read and b) he's gotta read and then process IT TAKES A LOT.]

I think I understand what your saying thank you
Thinking this way made me realize that I can talk about some things now I was to scared to before
Im going to do that