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[biwinning]

[LOCKED TO: VANADI]
2o not iin the mood for thii2 2o not iin the FUCKIING mood for thii2.
hey a22hole.
we have 2hiit two dii2cu22.
namely your 2tatu2 wiith my kii2me2ii2.


[OPEN TO ALL (delayed, after conversation with Vanadi)]

2o ii don't normally do thii2 but hey guy2 2up.
who want2 two fiight a pii22ed off p2ychiic.
don't raii2e your hand2 all at once.
ii need two burn off thii2 energy.
come on iit'll be fun ii'm liike a fiinal bo22 level of diiffiiculty.
braggiing riight2 for two week2 iif you wiin.

Comments

[biwinning]

Yeth. Tho do I have to...

[And he tries to cross his legs, like what she's doing.]

...Okay, what do I do?

[feel_nevermore]

[She closes her eyes.] Close your eyes. Take deep breaths. Try to clear your mind of all thoughts. Focus on yourself, on your energy, on your emotions.

[biwinning]

[He closes his eyes too, hands on his knees, and takes a few deep breaths. He gets to about thirty seconds, before he opens his eyes again.]

It's not working.

[feel_nevermore]

[Raven rolls her eyes under her close eyelids.] You gotta try a bit harder than that if you want it to work.

[biwinning]

Ith there like a thecret pathword to make it work better or thomething??

[feel_nevermore]

[And this happens to be not as silly a question as one might think.] Actually you can use a mantra to help you focus. It works pretty well for me.

You know what a mantra is, right?

[biwinning]

It'th thomething you thay over and over again, but I don't think any of my old favoritesth like "Shut up" or "Make it thtop" are going to work.

[feel_nevermore]

Probably not. If only because that'd remind you of the problem instead of helping you clear your mind.

What about a word or a name you like? Or just a simple sound?

[biwinning]

Uhm.

Buzz?

Like beesth. I raithe beesth.

[feel_nevermore]

[Now that might get annoying after a while... But she can't afford discouraging him by telling him that. He's trying. And if she concentrates enough she should be able to ignore the noise. She's had to ignore more annoying noises than that after all. Like BB's voice for instance.]

Yeah, why not. Whatever works for you.

[biwinning]

Alright. I'll try again.

[He closes his eyes, and tries to relax, quietly whispering 'buzz' to himself. It seems to ... be working?]

[feel_nevermore]

[Indeed, it does seem so. And so Raven starts meditating again, repeating her own mantra in a barely audible whisper.

She knew you could do it, Sollux.]