seventh glance

[eyecontact]

Hello to all the new people!
I guess it's been pretty confusing right? It has for everyone else too, I'm pretty sure about that. But I guess it's nice to know everything isn't all of a sudden backwards or upside-down...

I'm sorry I don't really have a lot of helpful information, but I guess if you don't know already, it's OK to ask for help. Most everyone is pretty good about at least trying to lend a hand...we're all stuck in this together after all.

I actually needed to ask for a little help myself right now...
I don't suppose anyone here knows how to repair a guitar? :\

Comments

[obfuskate]

They wanted you dead. Either they were going to kill you or someone was going to have to kill them.

This is war. People will die. It is foolish to think otherwise.

...

There is no need to apologize for that. I can defend myself.

[eyecontact]

I'm not really sure though...
We came out of nowhere to fight them for reasons they didn't even know...

[obfuskate]

Again: this is war.
This is the brutal reality.

Fighting cannot be avoided in every situation. You were brought here to fight, and you should do so.

[eyecontact]

I don't think I should just be doing as told when I'm not even sure what the consequences or results are going to be... :\
Why are you OK with just doing what they say?

[obfuskate]

I am not doing what they say. I am taking everything I have heard and researched and applying it for my own personal decision.

I work for nobody.

[eyecontact]

That just makes it harder for me to understand you. You're really powerful, aren't you? But aren't you strong enough to not kill somebody?

[obfuskate]

Strong enough not to kill somebody.

And just what do you mean by that?

[eyecontact]

It's what I've learned...
When somebody has a lot of power, it can be really easy to abuse it. It's even easier to let power dominate them. It can make them think it's OK to do what they want to other people because of it, but that's wrong.
There are people in my time that are like that. They let themselves get lost in mad grabs for more power, thinking that's what matters...and that hurting people along the way is perfectly fine. It's not.

[obfuskate]

Yet you still do not understand my point.

It is not a matter of if it is fine or not. It is a matter of what is necessary. Do you really think I will attempt to negotiate and bring peace when they are killing innocent people?

The one time I failed to fight at full power in a similar instance, the innocent died when I could have helped it.

[ If he'd busted out of that capsule and grabbed for Maria, maybe she would still be alive to this day, yet he failed her. He wasn't about to do that again. ]

[eyecontact]

[there's a delay in reply while he mulls on this. GRAY AREAS......]

Was that the only choice? Someone having to die?

[obfuskate]

Either they had to die or she did.

... We tried running. She abhorred fighting. She wished to maintain peace.

Because of this, she lost her life. I could have defended her far better than I did, yet I didn't, just as she wished.

[eyecontact]

[oh... :(]

I'm really sorry...

1/2

[obfuskate]

...

2/2; also goddamn cuties i love their cr AHHhhhHHh

[obfuskate]

Hmph. Now you know why I fight the way I do.

I refuse to let the innocent die again because of my own failure.

embraces them. gently. stop struggling, shadow.

[eyecontact]

[another delay.]

I can understand a little better...
But do you think that's how she would want it?

cheer up, whinyhog

[obfuskate]

[ given that he thought she wanted revenge, when ultimately, she wanted him to protect the very humans that killed her... ]

I... cannot be sure.

[ he thought wrong about her, another shortcoming in his vow to keep her promises. what if--

what if he was doing the wrong thing again? ]

[eyecontact]

I don't think I could tell you since I don't know her...
But she sounds like she was a really kind person. I don't think she was wrong to try for peace.

[obfuskate]

She... was not wrong, no. She wanted everyone to be at peace. Happy. Living out their dreams. She would not have been the type to take a life.

You...

You remind me of her. Maria.

[eyecontact]

[wow Joey look at you touching all these nerves and digging up these little nuggets of insight. TREAT THEM WITH CARE.]

It's an honor to be compared to somebody that good.

[obfuskate]

Mm. Consider it one.

...

I'm... sorry
if I hurt you.

SHADOW. SHADOW. -SHADOW.- 1/..1................

[eyecontact]

I'm sorry for getting mad at you.

[obfuskate]

Forgiven.

Just...

Don't do anything foolish enough to get yourself killed.

[eyecontact]

I try to avoid making that a habit...

[obfuskate]

Good. I can say more for you than most, then.

If you require my assistance, let me know. I will defend you. Somehow.

[ even if it means not physically fighting, he just...

he just won't let someone innocent and peaceful die again! he's determined! ]

[eyecontact]

I was going to offer the same actually...