Third Shot [Video]

[gamblinman]

[Nick is sitting at a table in his favorite bar, a glass of beer sitting on the table and a silver-plated lighter in his hand. He’s turning the lighter over and over, tapping it against the table occasionally.

His usual pissed-off look has been replaced with one that’s more somber.]

Y’know, I’ve never actually killed a person before. I’ve killed hundreds of zombies, and my dad took me hunting when I was younger – deer and elk, mostly. But I’ve never killed an actual person until that mission we went on.

It felt… different… than I thought it would.

[He taps a sealed package of cigarettes lying next to the beer.]

I gave up smoking about ten years ago… I’m starting to wonder why.

[The pissed-off look is back as he shakes his head irritably.]

Fuck this shit. We went back in time, right? By our standards, those fuckers had been dead for thousands of years. We were just… reenacting history. Nothing to feel guilty about.

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[Audio]

[asskickersunite]

How far back in time did you guys go?

[ video ]

[hostage]

You did what you had to do.

[But Jesse's just repeating the words someone else told him once.]

[totallytrustworthy]

Sorry, mate, killing is killing.

[It's not said without sympathy, but...you know, she's not going to sugarcoat it. She's killed, and she has standards, but it is what it is and nothing is going to change that.]

[audio]

[swissarmybow]

You do what you have to do.

voice

[implying]

Please, do feel some guilt for it. It's better to keep that.

[feyted]

It's not a re-enactment of history when you're altering history, sir.

( War... really is hell. These aren't the sort of decisions or conversations regular people should be having. But these rationalizations aren't right either. )

Feeling guilt over something you didn't plan to do... it's natural. But it doesn't change the fact of the matter, nor does it change that it was an act carried out under orders. How you choose to live with that is something for you to decide on yourself, if you can.

[goneonenight]

As others have said, you do what you have to, but...I wouldn't want to be the sort of person who treats it casually. Killing is supposed to take a toll on you.

[urnotafraid]

Just because you've gone in time doesn't make it easier. Keep the guilt, just don't drown in it. It'll help you later.

[Voice]

[caligulas_aquarium]

Get ower it, wuss.

[yep]

voice;

[motherofnemesis]

I've been told the first kill is always the hardest.

[video]

[charming_jerk]

[Johnny is silent for a few moments before he can form an answer. He feels exactly the same.]

...Glad I ain't alone.

[Audio]

[gamblinman]

Fuck if I know -- I wasn't really paying that much attention.

Couple thousand years, I think.

[Video ]

[gamblinman]

Wow, thanks for that stunningly original advice.

[Nick's a little cranky]

[gamblinman]

[He sighs tiredly]

Yeah, I guess it is.

[Video]

[gamblinman]

Yeah but it'd be easier if I knew what the fuck I was doing it for.

voice

[gamblinman]

Why? It's not like it's gonna do me any good to feel guilty about it. What's done is done, right?

[gamblinman]

Oh yeah? I think I'd believe that if it seemed like we did anything useful. Seems to me like all we did was kill a bunch of grass.

And lets be clear about something: I don't do anything under orders. I went 'cause I wanted to.

[hostage]

[Cool. He can say what he really means, then.]

You're a murdering son of a bitch. How's that? You like that better?

[gamblinman]

I know. But it's a hell of a lot easier to kill monsters than it is to kill real people.

At least they were attacking me, too. It would have been harder if it was just in cold blood, right?

[gamblinman]

Everybody keeps saying that. How exactly is feeling guilty supposed to help me?

[Voice]

[gamblinman]

Hey! It's not like I'm sitting here crying into a bowl of peanuts or something.

[This is what he gets for expressing his... feelings.]

Re: voice;

[gamblinman]

I killed more than one out there -- none of them seemed all that easy.

[implying]

Yes, it's done, and there isn't any use wishing it weren't... but I would vastly prefer the company of a man who has killed and feels sorry for it, than the man who has killed and hardly notices it.

[video]

[gamblinman]

It's just stupid, you know? After all the other shit I've done, this shouldn't be that big of a deal.

[Video]

[swissarmybow]

You've got a point, but sometimes you just follow orders.