[As much as he loves Billy, he doubts that it's possible for him to understand the rest of it. He's only a Lilim. These things are a part of his every day life. Kaworu himself has seen it on his face so many times.
The core of his heart, the part that is so disappointed and embarrassed by his decisions, seems to laugh. The warmth and comfort of living as a Lilim... before this happened, he never truly understood the consequences.]
I could not do it. [not a change of heart...] I was unable. It's impossible, but somehow, my AT Field... it wouldn't work.
[he grips Billy tightly again. can he understand it? the humiliation? the powerlessness? but no, not those things alone... but the difference between...]
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[As much as he loves Billy, he doubts that it's possible for him to understand the rest of it. He's only a Lilim. These things are a part of his every day life. Kaworu himself has seen it on his face so many times.
The core of his heart, the part that is so disappointed and embarrassed by his decisions, seems to laugh. The warmth and comfort of living as a Lilim... before this happened, he never truly understood the consequences.]
I could not do it. [not a change of heart...] I was unable. It's impossible, but somehow, my AT Field... it wouldn't work.
[he grips Billy tightly again. can he understand it? the humiliation? the powerlessness? but no, not those things alone... but the difference between...]