heartsink: (deux)
“Haruka Takahashi” ([personal profile] heartsink) wrote in [community profile] exsilium2013-06-05 06:20 pm

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[ the name attached to this account, and thus with all applicable comments within this entry, reads Haruka Takahashi, as usual.
for those of you just joining us at home, some info.
]

If you're only interested in useful posts, you can skip the rest of this. I'm only out to waste the time of those who want it wasted, today.
For anyone else, color me curious.

Water, Wind, Light, Flame, Earth, or Darkness.

Pick one, please.

To clarify, "light" doesn't mean good and "darkness" doesn't mean evil, or bad. Or vice versa; there's no moral alignment to any of them.
And I didn't "skip heart", so don't bother bringing that up.


[ tetchy. ]
speakveryclearly: Someone holds Kanaya's chin in their hand; she looks over at them, eyes lidded, blushing slightly, brows raised. (Uncomfortable)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-08 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
In That Case Would You Like To Hand Down A General Guideline So I Can At Least Make An Effort In The Right Direction
Or Is There Some Specific Benchmark You Have In Mind At Which Point Im Going To Come To An Epiphany About Our Relationship
speakveryclearly: Kanaya in red Japanese clothes on a pastel background. Swift strokes. Simple, slight smile. (Ordinary)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-08 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[STOPS
STARES AT THOSE WORDS FOR A MOMENT
AND COMES TO AN EPIPHANY ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP
First reply draft: Ok I Hadnt Expected That To Happen Anywhere Near This Soon]


I Can Think Of Quite A Few Cases In Which Ive Cared About People Whom I Think It Was A Worse Idea To Care About Than It Would Be To Afford The Same Treatment To You
speakveryclearly: Kanaya and Vriska are in schoolgirl uniforms. Vriska has a bandage on her neck and her hand on Kanaya's tie. (Schoolgirl)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-08 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[A strange choice of comparisons...]

Okay If I Were Who Almost Everyone I Care About But You Wants Me To Be
This Is The Part Where I Would Point Out That Nothing Could Have Been A Worse Idea Than That And That Im Incredibly Glad Hes Gone And Dead For Good So Really Any Caring Decision I Make From Here On Out Has To Be An Improvement Doesnt It
But Im Not Any Of The Above
Thats The Thing
Youre The Only Person I Know Who
Knows About Her
And Doesnt Want Me To Be Her
More Than That
You Actively Want Me To Not Be Her
Which Means So Much To Me
speakveryclearly: Kanaya cradles Gamzee's chin in her hand as she happily makes a purple mess of his neck. (Sweet)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-09 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
Youre Telling Me
If You Think I Had Bad Judgment With Eridan You Know Nothing About Me And Gamzee
I Think At This Point Im Addicted To The Feeling Of Sensibility Slowly Sapping Away From Me

Theres One Thing I Learned From Both Of Those Affairs Though
And Thats How You Cant Control Who You Care About Or Whether They Fall Victm To The Same Folly
It Takes Two To Friend-Tango
Or Friendango You Might Say
So Dont Worry That Because Youve Unintentionally Lured Me Into Emotional Attachment That You Shouldnt Want To Leave For The Sake Of Hurting Me
If You Decide Not To Desire Departure On The Grounds Of Your Unbelievable Potential Intellectual Utility To The Initiative And By Extension The Entire Multiverse Thats Great
My Account Is Worthless Though In The Grand Scheme Of Things Though Since Im Not Her
What Im Saying Is You Shouldnt Care That I Care About You
speakveryclearly: Kanaya with faintly upquirked lips and eyebrows at a whimsical Terezi. (Uncertainty)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-09 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
[Pathetic???
are you
flirting with her]


Of Course Im Not
But My Feelings Are
speakveryclearly: Kanaya in ivory, pointing out a problem with a raised arm and trying not to be petulant. (Dissatisfaction)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-09 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
Do You Think My Feelings Are Important
That Sounds Suspiciously Kind
speakveryclearly: Kanaya with unexpected pale hands on her shoulders, flickering a little like a headlight-captured antlerbeast. (Infected)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-09 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[What was that sound her pumpbiscuit just made

...okey-dokey?]


Okay Haruka I Really Dont Know How Can You Honestly Expect Someone To Believe Caring About You Is A Bad Idea When You Turn Around And Say Things Like That
If This Is Your Attempt To Dissuade Me Its Not Working At All
Edited (tried to construct a less "first thing in the morning" version) 2013-06-09 16:03 (UTC)
speakveryclearly: Kanaya with a scattered glow, looking down at something that has unexpectedly disappeared. (Surprise)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-10 07:53 am (UTC)(link)
[An invisible fist grabs what used to be her stomach and twists. This is fairly explicit confirmation of what suspiciously resembles a misleading incident. She is tempted, suddenly, to search the logs of every communicator conversation they've ever had. The sentences she sends end up arriving one by one in sequence, confused.]

Youve Acknowledged Before An Inability To Compel Me

Pretty Much Everything Else Is Shrouded In Mystery

Which Youre Apparently Doing On Purpose

What Do You Think I Dont Or Do Want

Ive Been Told Before That My Complacence In Exsilium Is Pretty Much A Symptom Of Perpetually Lowering Standards So Maybe Theyve Fallen Even Further Since Then
speakveryclearly: Kanaya, bitterly pale, frowning over being pushed away and ignored by Rose Lalonde. (Rejected)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-10 12:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Youre Implying That Condition Is Temporary And Conditional
Presumably Contingent On Some Information Youve Thus Far Not Revealed
And While I Respect Your Right To Privacy
Youre Making The Decision Of Whether Id Like You After That For Me
I Dont Know How To Type A Face This Confused And Incorporate A Glow At The Same Time So I Found This One
ヽ(☆(゜Q。)☆)ノ
speakveryclearly: Kanaya in ivory, pointing out a problem with a raised arm and trying not to be petulant. (Dissatisfaction)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-11 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
Youre Contradicting Yourself Theres Supposed To Be A Knowledge Discrepancy Here
To Fix Your Analogy
Youre Metaphorically Trying to Tell Me How In Exsilium It Literally Never Stops Raining And The Seasons Never Change
And I Am Metaphorically The Naive New Transport Insisting The Sun Has To Come Out At Some Point
In Your Analogy
Which Im Still Really Skeptical About
But In Your Analogy


[.......girls.......]
speakveryclearly: Kanaya very serious over a needle and thread in her hand and mouth. (Determined)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-11 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
[...]

Haruka I Do Not Think Youre In Any Position To Be Making Analogies
speakveryclearly: Kanaya with a smirk, pulsating brightly. (Aroused)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-11 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
Youre Giving Me A Very Bad Idea That I Know Will Be Upsetting
What If I Find You
In Your Non-Analogy-Prone Condition
And
Take Care Of You
!
speakveryclearly: Kanaya with her hand on her hip and a stark, cocentric, unforgiving aura. (Cold)

[personal profile] speakveryclearly 2013-06-11 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah Youve Moved That Is A Serious Flaw In This Plan

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