If programming a deep infatuation for me into someone is false, I'd rather it than continuing to ache for things I shouldn't like currently I do.

[His muscles relax a little from that touch, arms still crossed.]

Find them, but I've already found someone who should appreciate me. She's just too blind to see it, so thus, I have to try my hand at fixing that. [His brows furrow.] And Vanadi- [He's still not sure what to say about him. He stills- seems to want him in ways but- that's extremely different and he has no idea how to place words to those particular feelings besides-]

I can't give Vanadi the attention his flaws cause him to need. [Attention of many, many, many different people, but for some reason that just makes Vanadi even more sad.]