I'm always careful. [Somehow, she manages a grin, sharp and flippant, and it's so Robin that it hurts as much as all the memories do. She manages it because it's what Robin might say, because she might not be as skilled as Bruce, or Tim, but she knows how to slip in and out of roles. She's good at it, too, but she that it's too fragile right now, knows the Nikolai will see how fake it is, and see how pained it is. But she can't bring herself to care.
It's a surprise to her that she reached specifically for Robin at a time like this. Or maybe it isn't, when the brightness of Dick and Jason has been making her feel sick to her stomach with the knowledge of what's coming for both of them.
But wearing that grin feels like something shattering, as if she can let herself fall apart and play at this, instead, even if she can't work out whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. She even laughs, though it's a little darker than a Robin laugh should be.]
It's shit if it's not, they should've grabbed someone who'd swallow their bullshit.
[All that anger and tension of a moment ago can be redirected, after all.
(Later, she'll find things to hit until her knuckles bleed, and shatter in that way so she can pick up the pieces and get on with living.)]
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It's a surprise to her that she reached specifically for Robin at a time like this. Or maybe it isn't, when the brightness of Dick and Jason has been making her feel sick to her stomach with the knowledge of what's coming for both of them.
But wearing that grin feels like something shattering, as if she can let herself fall apart and play at this, instead, even if she can't work out whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. She even laughs, though it's a little darker than a Robin laugh should be.]
It's shit if it's not, they should've grabbed someone who'd swallow their bullshit.
[All that anger and tension of a moment ago can be redirected, after all.
(Later, she'll find things to hit until her knuckles bleed, and shatter in that way so she can pick up the pieces and get on with living.)]