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[redheadcarrier]

So, who else is staying in their rooms until this is over?

This whole zombie thing is a load of crap.

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[speakveryclearly]

I Thought I Wasnt Dealing With A Stupid Girl But I Wanted To Exercise Caution Anyway

[redheadcarrier]

[It's honestly amazing that Asuka hasn't blown up at her yet.]

Wow, I feel so ~flattered~

[speakveryclearly]

[Kanaya has a way with dangerous girls

"Way" mostly meaning "thing for"]

Dont

[redheadcarrier]

[Poor Kanaya.]

Don't what?

[speakveryclearly]

Feel Flattered
Or ~Flattered~ Which I Have Discerned Is The Opposite Of Flatter
I Find Your Conversation Engaging And Refreshing And I Dont Want To
Im Not Entirely Sure What I Dont Want To Do Actually
Just That I Probably Am Right Now

[redheadcarrier]

Oh, good, you're perceptive. I wouldn't want to be stuck talking to some oblivious moron.

[Wait a second - there's another stall on Asuka's side and her next message comes timestamped a few minutes later.]

You think I'm engaging?

[Well, that does a bit for her (admittedly horrible) self-image.]

I mean, I am, of course.

[speakveryclearly]

Yes Of Course Asuka
What Else Would I Still Be Doing Here After This Amount Of Time

[After all it's been over 100 comments, how many minutes does that translate into

Sent with not a stall necessarily, but still as a separate message--]

I Havent Been Putting Forth The Affect Of Disengagement Have I
This Is A Genuine Question

[redheadcarrier]

I don't know, basking in my presence? You tell me, Maryam.

[Hooray for visible user IDs.

Well, Asuka's just been bored and killing time on the network is better than going out and actually facing the world and trying to deal with trauma.]

I don't think so. Why is that important?

[speakveryclearly]

[Asuka literally just went up 5 points in Kanaya's mind SHE CAN READ NETWORK IDS THANK THE GODS]

I Just Didnt Want To Give Off An Inaccurate Impression
Its Reassuring To Know Im Not

[redheadcarrier]

[Man, who doesn't read network IDs? They're right on the posts.]

Why do you care what other people think about you?

[That's a dismal lack of self-awareness from Asuka right there.]

[speakveryclearly]

[So many people you don't even know maaaaaan the peasants here]

Reality Is To An Extent
Built By Others Thoughts Isnt It
For Instance If You Were Invisible It Would Not Mean You Actually Didnt Exist
But Other People Would Still Ignore You So Your Existence Would Still Be Compromised

[redheadcarrier]

[Uncultured louts, the lot of them.

Also, holy crap Kanaya, way to hit her where it hurts.]

If no one knows you exist, maybe it'd be better if you didn't.

[speakveryclearly]

[Fangs are there for a reason yep]

Thats Not What Id Consider The Moral Of The Analogy

[redheadcarrier]

Death can't be any worse than being unwanted.

[Good God, she's starting to remember the tangled web of reality and weird, dream-like flashes that came with Instrumentality. All of the horrible truths about herself that she was forced to look at.

It's not something she likes remembering. She stays curled up on her bed for a few minutes before adding:]

not that dying would be great or anything stupid like that.

[Mood: plummeting. She's stuck in this weird space between wanting to keep on existing and wishing she could curl up into a ball and just stop.]

[speakveryclearly]

The Moral Of The Analogy That I Intended Was That You Can Take Actions To Ensure That You Are Wanted By Others

[Though now she's thinking about how dubious her own success in this regard has been GREAT...]

[redheadcarrier]

[Sometimes, it seems like that's all she does; vie for approval.]

People should want me for being me! Why do I have to go to them for approval?

[And yet, she does it anyway.]

[speakveryclearly]

How Can You Give Them Approval If Youre Not Present To Receive It

[redheadcarrier]

I don't know!

People are stupid, anyway. I shouldn't need them.

[speakveryclearly]

I Was Under The Impression Youre A Person

[redheadcarrier]

What does that have to do with anything?

[speakveryclearly]

You Just Said People Are Stupid
Im Being Pedantic But I Thought Id Point It Out Anyway
Make Some Effort At Allieving Your Misanthropy

[redheadcarrier]

I wasn't talking about me. Ugh.

Besides, why are you trying to do that?

[Although that does give her ego a little boost.]

[speakveryclearly]

Because Ive Found Misanthropy Is Depressingly Compliant With The Facts Of Reality But Alarmingly Incompatible With Proceeding Through It At All Favorably
And The More I Allow It To Sieze Others
The More True It Becomes
A Toxic Cycle To Be Nipped In The Bud

[redheadcarrier]

I don't need you to fix me! Who the Hell do you think you are?

[speakveryclearly]

Its Not Like That
When You See An Enemy Soldier On The Horizon And Gun Them Down
Is That Fixing